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10 years ago i was in a very small boat going to a resort, Banana resort in Panama, in a big big storm. After 100 waves bigger than me hit my face and my shoe was under water … the sound of the motor started to die like this … ‘ba ba ba …die … ba ba ba … die’ and still we have a long way to go.
I have no idea how to swim so really i am a thai rock. And if you know that and have a feel in your heart .. ya my time is coming to die … only thing i can do is find what makes me be relax with that if it happens. You know how many times in my life i pray for something with buddah? You know how many times i really really mean 100% what i say? 1 … that time.
And now 2 … last week in Krabi was second time.
How? I promise to myself i will never go in a small wood boat like that again in the ocean … but 3 days ago yup i was in a boat like that again.
Then maybe you read about the storm in Krabi and Phuket last week? So you know what happened to the house and some boats from the storm? Ok so same time the storm did that to everything me Natty and my client we were in the water.
Did you have a chance in your life to fly to Penang yet? In Malaysia.
If ya … you remember how you land? The plane has to go lower and lower like you go to land soon but not on land ok … on the ocean. Then the plane has to turn almost 1 circle to go to the airport and both times in my life when the plane does that … i sit at the window that goes down not up. So i can see the water so close like i can touch it.
Funny about that … i remember both times everybody just stop talking and it is so quiet in the plane. Same feeling in the boat.
When we go we are laughing and make a joke … talk a lot … do sexy photos … actually Natty has the most sexy photo i think … she can do a photo like a fashion star. And we go out like that in the boat we don’t think too much about the clouds or the wind we just go on a trip.
Slowly ok … the talking is not so much … then a little bit … then nothing. 100% slient hill. The boat beside us not too far we can only see 1 time in 5 seconds because the wave will hide it when we go down and the wave goes up. Very far up lol.
The first time i see a wave like that … in Panama … i think the same thing … amazing, wow.
Then i think ohoh … that is so bad to have waves like that.
And finally your brain stops to joke with you and you get serious … well i get serious. I think wow this is a big problem and if something happens no way i will make it. I know everybody thinks the same thing because silent. Only sound is the engine but for me that is worse. I remember in Panama the engine will stop and start … and stop and start again and every time my heart stops too. Well i feel like that … like my heart is stopping at the same time.
So this time i listen to the engine and yup .. second time i pray 100% to buddah. I take my iphone and film everything because if i die i want everybody to see that how i died. I tell buddah to show who drives the boat to help him and his family be safe … and Natty … and my client i am with. I don’t show it i am scared i just pray quiet and sit wait to see if he will make it or not.
He makes it to the side of the island where the water is not so bad and look at that … every boat is hiding there before us lol. We are about the last boat to come in. So that is two times lucky in my opinion.
Some boats i can see are hurt and cannot go out and some houses we can see are broken. The clouds are not the same on both sides of the island. One side has sun still and behind me where we just come from is so dark and scary. Like the storm is chasing us and we try to get to the sun but it feels so slow.
Later .. we go out again.
The storm come and go already and close to the land i see a baby … a boy ok … and he is jumping climbing like a monkey from tree to ground to tree again looking at all the garbage in the water from the storm. Maybe about 2 minutes i watch looking at him and he finds after a little bit cans … like coke cans. And he is happy like he won the lottery … big smile in his face. He runs to show his mom and she puts it in her bag.
Sound familiar? If you read my blog you know the answer is yes … that was my life before in the garbage dump place digging in the garbage from 1am to 5am every night for something to sell.
It was like i was looking at myself you know what i mean? Like he is me before so really i look at the past .. my life was like what. Like something wants me to remember again and not forget.
Like i say before … i believe really life has a lot of signs to show you what way to go and you have to know what is a sign when you see it. For me that was a sign.
In that boat was like i can see my past again and where i come from.
Just like the movie … that was my back to the future trip.
