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Human Toilet Training | Map to the Golden Monkey

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Human Toilet Training | Map to the Golden Monkey

“Human toilet training session needed by me.  I’ve followed the map to the golden monkey and it’s led me to you.  Will you be the one to give me what I so desperately seek?”

With my human toilet training sessions being priced at 15,000 baht per meal I thought that would dissuade people from even inquiring about sessions let alone book them, but noooooo.  Though I dropped Economics in University it seems I learned the laws of supply and demand well enough for it was a simple supply and demand equation that made me think long and hard about what men truly desire when it comes to all things related to poo and femdom.

The simple recipe for creating uncontrollable demand is this …

  • Watch 1000 videos on mistress’s feeding slaves their shit.
  • Analyze why none of those videos are any good.
  • Write many stories about men with such fantasies truly desire.
  • Hit the nail smack on the nail of the head in every story I’ve written.

and that’s it … oh and one more important ingredient …

  • have stunning looks and and even more stunning ass.

the golden monkeyWhen I realized the demand for such a session was far far greater than I had ever hypothesized and that the supply of beautiful women willing to supply such a treat is pracitcally non-existant , I threw out 15,000 as a number off the top of my head for how much I should charge for the pleasure of being under my ass at the most innapropriate time possible.  Two sessions a day multiplied by about three hundred days a year came out to nine million in revenue, I won’t lie to you … I had walked into the sales office of that condo being being built beside Nana bts station and had serious visions about plopping down a cool 20 million a couple of years hence.

Now here we are just over a year later and you know what?  Condo be damned , I can’t stand doing the sessions because they are nothing more than a cash grab with nothing in it for me.  Yes, to a certain point what I do pays the bills and is moving me towards being financially independent , however it’s never been about money , it’s always been about the challenge of seducing a man, dominating him , coercing him to eventually do whatever I ask him to.

That’s not an easy thing to do.  If you can imagine me on my first solo session without Jaa to guide me , I was nervous as I’ve ever been in my life.  It’s no easy feat to take a man who is superior to me in size, strength and age … and break his willpower.  I believe this is why a staggering disproportionate amount of mistresses rely on dungeons, pain, and fear in their sessions because it evens the odds.

Since day one I’ve never gotten a man to do what I want by going down that road , I’ve always relied on seduction and love which give me a great deal of leverage over how much I can influence a man.  Whereas any woman can step into the role of being a mistress using pain as her tool , it takes many failed sessions to learn the craft of seduction.  I measure failure by the degree , or lack thereof , of how much a man has fallen in love with me by the end of a short two hour session.  A harsh measuring stick to be sure , but an accurate one.

For it is within that feeling of love that I can begin to inspire a man to do anything to please me.

Nothing , and I mean nothing , excites me more than giving a man a command to do something – and have him look me with a gaze in his eye that says “are you kidding me” only to have my eye confirm a strong “yes” without any words being spoken.  To see him follow through with whatever it was I ordered him to do is a true transference of power , as is immediately removing him from my life if he hesitates to fulfill or even worse … questions my request.

golden bdsm femdom chest scat pooNow understand this, while I have on a few occasions abruptly ended sessions simply because there was a failure to appease me , I had done so because to continue with the session at that point would have been meaningless as I had misjudged the moment.  Does that make sense to you?  If not, you’re probably thinking within the context of a two hour session.   Don’t.  I’m talking about the relationship of trust that develops slowly over many subsequent sessions as the submissive falls deeper and deeper under my control.  He’s trusting me to take him deeper into the rabbit hole with every passing session and I’m trusting that he’ll willingly be led past any limits he thought he had.

You see, at the beginning of the first session , there’s no way I can ask something outlandish to be done and expect my wish to be followed through on.  The trick on my part is judging when that moment is that he’s so far in love with being his mistress’s submissive that there no longer is anything implausible that I can ask him to do.  It’s done willingly , albeit reluctantly , with no complaint , for him such a request is just the next plunge down the rabbit hole.  For me to misjudge such a moment and have him refuse me , or question me , that’s a failure on my part to properly interpret the degree of his submissiveness towards me at that given moment.

If I did fuck up so brilliantly then I’ve lost the mood for the session as whatever magic I felt was present , clearly wasn’t and since I refuse to do anything that is acted out without feeling I have to end the session right then and there.

It rarely happens that I misjudge where we are in the mistress – submissive relationship though.

the-mapSo as an example , going back to late February I had a dinner session on my calendar , the fifth of such dates with a French Canadian kid – Marc Andre – the name sticks to me because he wouldn’t let me address him by one of those two names , he insisted that was his full name.  Solved that problem by calling him Maa – “dog” in my language as his last name began with an A as well.  For his four hour dinner session we ate at Above Eleven from 7-10 pm , then went dancing until 4am.  I normally stay out until the sun rises but in this case , he was having so much fun spending all this time with me “off the books” that I sensed he’d do anything to prolong an already very lengthy “session.”

At our table I leaned over to him and asked him “do you want to go back to my condo?”

“Yes” he said enthusiastically.

“Good” I said while giving him a good squeeze under the table between his legs, “I have to poo.”

My dance club is on the same soi as my condo so we were home a few minutes later.  I let him take off his shoes and then led him by the hand to my bedroom … and then right through my bedroom and into the bathroom.

“Come on” I said after he paused at the doorway.  “Told you I have to do a number two” and I squatted backwards cowboy style over the toilet seat still with my jeans on.

Both his hands covered his face from his nose down and he uttered some shit in French that I didn’t understand.

“Or you can go home.  Upto you.”

“Mistress I …” he said only that for his complaint to what I was asking him , but he got on his hands and knees and crawled under my ass anyways.

femdom bdsm scat toilet training coinA moment like that is what I live for.  There’s nothing forced going on , it’s just a simple request by me that will either be carried out or it won’t.  Oh but when it does get carried out and he’s under there kicking his feet violently on the floor , slapping his hands against my thighs as he holds on tight like he’s about to ride a bull – that’s pure bliss on my part right there.  It’s moments like that which let me carry out such a fetish.

In any one of my 15,000 baht sessions I have neither heard such heavy breathing , such whimpering , nor have I seen a face full of tears as I have always seen when a poo eating fetish has been carried out my way and under circumstances that I dictate.

Rather, each of those sessions that I’ve done for the money grab has been like feeding a hungry kid that I have no affection for.

Therefore ,  I don’t care if you’re offering me 30k  or 50k for such a poop-on-demand kind of session , I’m not doing it.  It’s a “treat” that only a very select few will ever get to experience with me , and I have no map to the golden monkey to give you which lays out exactly what to do to become the next guy in line for such a meal.  This is one of those rare times where the golden monkey finds you , if you’re worthy.

 

xx

 

Thai Mistress | Jaa | Elite Bankok Domina - Get on your knee's for Goddess Jaa, the sexiest dominatrix Bangkok has ever known, Domina specializing in Tease & Denial BDSM


Ass Crack and Ham

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Ass Crack and Ham

R – D – T – S – TH

The five sounds we can’t make when trying to speak English because our language comes from our throat with little to no movement of the tongue or jaw needed whatsoever.  To help myself overcome this problem I read a lot of Dr.Seuss even though I was 13 at the time and the books were below the level I should have been reading at.  No other book was as repetitive as Green Eggs & Ham and there were nights where long after everyone had gone asleep I’d be sitting in my bed trying to say “i would not could not in a bed” … which struck me as an atypical thing to say for most girls i knew in the village.

Over time I developed the dexterity needed to enunciate the language well enough , but I am one of the few.

Where’s she going with this?

It’s a thin story , I admit , as not much note-worthy has happened this week in terms of sessions , so I’m just skimming over 2 funny things that happened which both came from the strangeness of Phonetics.

The first of which came when talking with a girlfriend of mine who got herself pregnant again with a foreigner and was coming to me for help because the guy was insistent that the child be named after his father – Art  , this after naming her first child with him Craig .

I absolutely lost it when she came to me with this problem , and we were both in tears laughing at how unfortunate this problem is.  You see , for those of you who are not familiar with how we get rid of sounds in your alphabet for easier ones in ours , the letter R always gets replaced with the letter S.

So yes, while naming his son after his father is a noble gesture , he is in fact condemning his son to be called Ass and thus guaranteeing his son a few hundred school fights to look forward to.

But hold on, i told you her first son, now 4 years old was named Craig.

ass crack bdsm femdom bangkokIt’s hard to imagine a worse name to give a son than Ass but if there was , it’d be Craig – if one is intending to live here.  That’s because other than myself and a handful of others , Craig gets pronounced as Quack.

Which if you’re astute , you’ve already put one and one together and realized that when she introduces her two sons to people in her village, she’ll be saying : “These are my two sons Ass Quack”

Which is as close to naming your kids asshole as one can get I suppose.

Even if you’re gonna be smart about things and you name you kid with a foreigner type name that is easily pronounceable here , chances are the doctor and the people who work at the office registering the name will fuck it up.  Case in point, my other girlfriend who has a son named Thomas or Tom as he’s known by at school.  Yet when the teacher reads his name out, she has to say Somat which has pissed off her husband to no end.

When Thomas was born the girl at the name registry office said that the name had to begin as S-O-M because there is no TH in this country.  Really?  It’s the first two letters of this country dumb ass.  Also , never give you kid a name that ends in S because by our rules , that sound must be changed to a T sound , so you’ll never get the purity of the name you wished to have for your child.

I promise you though, that if the day comes I actually do sit down to write a novel based on three kids characters, the book will begin as such :  “Never had there been three friends who had grown more close in friendship than those of Ass Crack and Somat”

Moving on, or rather .. coming back to Green Eggs & Ham , while Wael was hosting our moo-ka-ta bbq at my request the other day , she did so speaking English the whole time which i commend her for , yet when she tries to say something as simple as “I did, I cooked it myself” to everyone’s ears it would be picked up as “I dis, I coosed is myselphphph”.  She’s picking up the language fast as can be , but she’s had nobody teach her the phonetics of the language so that’s holding her back.

Leave it to me to not leave well enough alone , I got up and went to the computer to see if I could google up Green Eggs & Ham for her and wouldn’t you know it , I found it and loaded it up for her so for the next hour while we ate I got her to read and re-read that book until she began to learn to move her mouth correctly.  I was relentless in how much I corrected her , and for 15 minutes straight she was caught up on “I would not could not in a house, I could not would not with a mouse.”

Try saying that sentence while paying attention to how much your mouth moves around , then consider how difficult that must be for somebody who has spoken through her throat all her life.

When we finally got through it for the second time she collapsed on the bed trying to massage her mouth with her hands complaining how sore her jaw was.

“I don’t like Green Eggs & Ham” she said.

“Not in a house, not with a mouse?” I replied.

“Go fuck yourself” was her final remark.

sexy ass bdsm femdom bangkokSo then fast forward 24 hours as the next day we had a double mistress session with a guy in my condo who wanted to be double teased with heavy facesitting.  There’s two types of facesitting in case you didn’t know.  There’s the guys who love to worship a perfect ass and love to see it dangling ever so close above their face before maybe or maybe not getting to worship it later that evening with their mouth.  Then there’s the guys who love being smothered with an ass to the point where they struggle to breathe and almost end up passing out.  It’s a tremendous turn-on for them … but if for that group of people I only hovered above them , they wouldn’t enjoy it at all.

For the ass smother group , I have Wael do the face sitting as by default her ass is bigger than mine.  That’s not to say she has a fat ass , she doesn’t and how could she,  this is the girl who does 16gk squats with kettlebells for an hour each day.  I’m simply saying that my ass is tiny , round, tight , curvy , and perfect for worshiping from a slight distance.  Hers is a tad heavier and can completely smother a face.

There she was then , sitting atop this fellow for the first time counting to twenty in an agonizingly slow way so that he’d start kicking his feet and rocking his body to find air.  In anger she looked down at him and yelled out:

“Ham!”

To which i thought nothing of it since Ham in our language means ‘forbidden’ or when barked like a command can mean “Don’t”

“Ham , do you like it Ham?’

To which he tilts his chin outside of her ass just enough to eek out a “what?” as I sit there still stroking his dick but more fascinated by what they’re trying to communicate to one another.

“Ham, listen to me Ham, haam”

I rolled my eyes up towards my forehead searching for the translation of what she just said at which time it clicked like a light bulb.  I laughed.  Before he had arrived she asked me what his name was and I had told her “His name is Sam , just like in the book remember?”

“Oh Sam I am” she had said, “yes I remember”.

Yet there in the middle of the session from the excitement of suffocating this poor dude , she got the book confused and had begun calling him Ham.  Ham I Am.

“Why do you keep saying Ham?” he said after the fifth gasp for breath.

Then I recalled my friend’s kid and soon to be born baby which made me blurt out “Ass Crack and Ham” and I laughed so hard I had to excuse myself and leave the room in tears.  That line in it’s own isn’t that funny probably , but it was the trigger that we all get at some point in our lives that sets off uncontrollable laughter which nobody else in the room gets.

And that ladies and gentlemen , or just gentlemen actually as i doubt any ladies come here for their daily frap … was the height of excitement in my week of teasing.

Finally , to all who had marked on the calendar the significance of today and remembered to email me … from the bottom of my heart … thank you.  So many of you are so astute and so kind , it really touched my heart to wake up and see so many emails waiting in my inbox.  I had purposely not mentioned anything about it to see if indeed anyone remembered and so many of you did.

xx

 

 

 

 

 

Thai Mistress | Jaa | Elite Bankok Domina - Get on your knee's for Goddess Jaa, the sexiest dominatrix Bangkok has ever known, Domina specializing in Tease & Denial BDSM

The Ralph Wiggum Effect

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> The Ralph Wiggum Effect

This is more a bit of friendly advice than a story intended for those who not only want to live here but are going to be raising kids here.

Everything the baby hears should be in your mother tongue right from the day it’s born.  No exceptions.

If the mom doesn’t speak your language , that’s fine , but make sure the television shows , the books , the YouTube videos and most importantly the school is subjecting your kid to your language 90% of the time.

The result?  Well it’s like running a marathon.  Nobody is declared a champion after the first 500 meters and it’s not until the first 5km are over that you start to get some separation in the runners.

Same goes with raising a kid , yes they might fall behind in my language in the first 4 years but guess where they live?  Guess what they’re going to hear every day of their lives , my language.  So if you trust in the kid’s ability to learn a language by osmosis , then by the time the kid is 10 years old , the child will be fluent in both languages.  What’s even cooler than that , is not only will the kid talk with you in an accent that’s a replica of the one spoken in your homeland , but they will have an exact replica of my language as well.

It’ll freak you out.  You’ll hear your kid talk like they’re two different people , and it’ll make you proud to hear it.

Here’s the hard part about what I just said … being able to execute your plan against popular consensus.  You’ll be pressured into letting these people force their ways onto you , don’t let them!

Jaa’s son is in town and had dinner with him last night.   At one point during dinner while he was sucking on the lemon that came with my salmon steak I asked him wryly “are you the lemon?” thinking I was making a private joke to myself.

He then sucked the last bit of juice from the lemon while climbing up and squatting on the chair as the people from the table beside us looked over disapprovingly.  He took the wedge out from his mouth , dropped it on the plate and when he crossed his arms he said “bitch please, squatting monkeys tell no lies.”

ralphRude, bold , brazen ?  Yes to all.

Funny as hell ?  Fuck ya.

Sitting beside him was his slightly older 12yo buddy , who’s dad hadn’t followed the rules I just laid down for you up above.

He reaches out his hand and after nearly spilling the glass bottle of water in doing so I asked him what it was he wanted and that I’d pass it to him.

“I you butter i you can give me i want give ok” he said sounding slightly like a retarded child.  Fuck political correctness , I’m telling you that this blue eyed brown hair kid from Vancouver, Canada (by blood) couldn’t construct a kindergarten level sentence properly and sounded like an idiot trying to speak in his dad’s native tongue.

“How the fuck can you let your son grow up talking like that?” I bluntly asked that kid’s dad , and a silence fell across the table.

“Blubber blubber blah blech” his dad mumbled something defensive in return that showed how truly brainwashed he’d become in living here for the past decade.  Can’t deny the truth though.  Two kids sat at that table last night.  One can fit in anywhere in the world seamlessly.  The other is going to taking dicks up the ass ten times a day a few years out … if he doesn’t want to make $5 a day working with the rest of the denizens of similar language skills.

I call it the Ralph Wiggum effect , don’t let it happen to your kid.

xx

 

 

 

 

Thai Mistress | Jaa | Elite Bankok Domina - Get on your knee's for Goddess Jaa, the sexiest dominatrix Bangkok has ever known, Domina specializing in Tease & Denial BDSM

Silent Dignity

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Silent Dignity

Well I got released from the hospital yesterday and I suppose the good news is that the pain has subsided enough that I can focus long enough to type something without passing out.  The bad news then I guess is that the pain I’m in is still excruciating and I’m still bed ridden.  Which obviously means that unless one wanted to come over and stare at this tearful mess that I’ve become for  your two hours of femdom fun – there will be no sessions any time soon.  I’m estimating at least a week , maybe two.

What to take away from this experience?  Well, now that I’ve had to spend well over $5,000 in European or American currency this year for unplanned medical visits I could say that it’s about time I invest in some medical insurance , however that wasn’t the big take away of it all.

Neither was it the momentary brain fart I had when I realized I was out of water and hardly able to move from the sofa.   It took me well over 20 minutes to move from my sofa to the fridge two days ago and when I realized there was nothing to drink whatsoever I was seriously considering taking a sip from the tap water – which is like playing Russian roulette with 5 bullets in the chamber.

I stood there tapping my phone in my hand looking at my list of friends , none of whom actually reside in the city here , and considered calling on any one of you guys to come deliver water to me but I’m absolutely not the kind of person who wants to bother people to do something on my behalf.  However some eight hours later my body was telling me through all the other pain I was in that if I didn’t get some water in me soon things were going to get a whole lot worse.

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Moving my leg but an inch would cause me to scream so gutting out a walk over to 7 Eleven was out of the question.  I like to live a life of anonymity so asking the security guy downstairs was a no-go as well as the less people who know I exist the better .. call it an occupational hazard.

Then it hit me , just order food and drink.  Honestly, had I not been in such delirious pain it would have been second nature to think of ordering from FoodPanda but I wasn’t able to think properly which perhaps may give you a sense of the degree of pain I am in.  Or perhaps not.

problemsWhat I got from this experience is that there is a dignity that comes with suffering in silence.  My best high school friend may die soon , and she tells not a soul of her daily plight living with the leukemia that is draining the life out of her daily.  I talked only with her the day of my operation , she simply said to me “be strong, be quiet , you’ll survive.”  I most certainly wasn’t quiet, I screamed loud enough for the whole floor to hear while being cut open but that’s done with , I did indeed survive it.  Now as I sit here recovering , pain be dammed , I feel strong.

I may lose many things in my life , but if I lose my dignity , my honor , then I am lost.

… and I am far from being lost.

 

xx

 

 

 

Thai Mistress | Jaa | Elite Bankok Domina - Get on your knee's for Goddess Jaa, the sexiest dominatrix Bangkok has ever known, Domina specializing in Tease & Denial BDSM

Pain, Zombies, and Zug Zug

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Pain, Zombies, and Zug Zug

Well, I’m no longer fearful of child birth.

What I am fearful of, sitting here 1000 feet in the air near the 30th floor in my condo which faces out towards the west is that the zombie apocalypse may have begun and I wouldn’t know because for fourteen days I’ve been living in a vacuum of space with my ass tied to this sofa.  I lie, I can actually see the highway yonder in the distance jammed with cars that barely move so I know that life goes on outside these walls … sadly as I think a zombie purge is exactly what this city needs.

Come on!!  Am I the only one who would see the irony in Soi Cowboy or Nana being turned into an abandoned area patrolled by scantily clothed zombie bitches roaming the go-go bars?  The irony being that either way, foreigners are still zombie chow in those places.  At least while you’re getting eaten alive by a zombie whore you wouldn’t be pledging to support her.

I now contemplate whether having zombies devour my flesh while I scream would be any less painful than the surgery I had to endure.

Oh to be American …

Yes, surgery over there does not sound fun. I’m surprised they didn’t give you some strong anesthesia and some morphine after (I even got morphine after a shoulder dislocation). We have a long weekend here as it’s fourth of July (independence day, which I’m sure you know as you know way too many American cultural references!).

 

Hah!

No such luck for me, I got anti inflammatory medication and of course some Paracetamol because hey … it cures everything right?

For anesthesia I was given a soft mouth piece and told to “bite down on it, it helps” to which I told the doctor “are you really quoting me lines from Starship Troopers as surgical protocol?”

 

 

To be honest, I’d take the whipping over the surgery.

Like I said, child birth has nothing on what I went through I’m sure – and no – I don’t need all you guys lining up outside my door volunteering to try and get me pregnant so I can test my hypothesis out.

zugzugMy doctor advised me that it’ll be another week before I can move about naturally which is great as my life of dancing,  perusing restaurants and shopping , has been replaced by video games and movies.  I’ve investigated life as a couch potato and the results are in :  it’s not all it’s cracked up to be.

I apologize for cancelling so many sessions, being curt in my email replies, and my tardiness in getting to them.  You see I have flowers to gather, rocks to mine, orc’s to bite and I have to ding 100 – all before I re watch Game of Thrones season 6 for the third time and add a few more things to my Amazon Wish List.

ดู Game of Thrones

ดู The Walking Dead

That’s how you search for your favorite tv shows or movies if you want to watch them.  Netflix?  Ha, that’s for Americans , in this country everything is free, just gotta know where to look.

So that’s my update.  No sessions this week – again , but the good news is that by next week it could be that things will get back to normal.

Until then .. zug zug

xx

 

 

Thai Mistress | Jaa | Elite Bankok Domina - Get on your knee's for Goddess Jaa, the sexiest dominatrix Bangkok has ever known, Domina specializing in Tease & Denial BDSM

Tease & Denial Please

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Tease & Denial Please

Good news, I’m back doing sessions once again!

I never expected the aftermath of the surgery to last so long, the pain has stuck around longer than herpes does (i’m going by word of mouth on that one) and I sat in one spot on my sofa for so long that there is now a permanent ass dent in the cushion.  Feel free to come over and sniff it at your leisure 😛

I tend to write from recollection of memorable sessions but since I’ve had no sessions to base my thoughts on I’ve had a hard time coming up with things to write about that wouldn’t bore you to tears.  I had written up a story on “the advantages of having a pussy the size of a softball” but had to stop after “they’ll think I’m a hung ladyboy if I go for a walk” as there really are no advantages.  Guys are lucky, if you had elephantitis of your testicles a great percentage of girls would run to bang you silly and you could definitely use that to your advantage.

While I’m happy to report that while my pussy is back to normal there is a lingering post-surgery tenderness that’ll prevent me from being laid for yet another month or so.  Honestly, I get laid less than a nun .. and definitely than a priest 😛   So you guys can lay to rest the fallacy that pretty girls can laid whenever they want, I’m living proof we don’t.

So in looking for inspiration to write about, I came across this email that expressed a common wish that many share, one that is erroneous as it goes against what a Tease & Denial session seeks to accomplish.  Check it out:

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I get a kick out of when people say “rubbing me” , I always get this visual of a dude rubbing the head of his dick like he’s trying to make fire.  There’s very little rubbing that goes on in a Tease session , that familiar up and down motion is what the guy wants to feel as it gives him pleasure , my job is to give him no relief.  I think of it like going up on a roller coaster and getting that sensation of butterflies in the stomach one gets just as they reach the top … except that my roller coaster never reaches the top , it just climbs and climbs perpetually.

But that’s not what is at fault in his thinking.  My issue is in the reasoning behind his desire for a session , that being so he can be trained to last longer.

Trust me, you won’t want to last longer in my session or in Wael’s for that matter.  In fact, you’ll be begging to cum inside of three minutes and you’ll be wishing you had booked a happy ending massage before your first 10 minutes are up.

I have a video , sorry I can’t share it publicly as it has my voice on it , but if you want to see it ask me privately for the link.  Anyways, in said video the guy says “please don’t stop again, no no no, please please I need to cum, I’m begging you let me cum” followed by 10 seconds of uncontrollable sobbing.  It’s not an act, that’s what every single guy says inside of 15 minutes.  In preparation for my session I often give guys a game to play with themselves.  You can play along too if you like, it’s a good introduction to what Tease & Denial is like.

To begin, you are not allowed to touch yourself or cum for three straight days, and in that time you are not permitted to look at anything pornographic, it’s just a build up period that will ensure your dick will over respond when stimulated.  Upon the arrival of the fourth day when you have a considerable amount of time at your disposal I need you to look up the fetish niche of porn that you go to when you want to be fully stimulate your imagination.  For this dude it’ll be a sexy girl in pantyhose , for the guy I’m seeing tonight it’ll be a ballbusting video , it can be whatever – just make sure it’s the forbidden niche that turns you on the most.

While watching it you are to stroke yourself ever so slowly.  At no point are you allowed to permit your hand to do any violent up and down motion that gives you a relief from the build up.  When you get close, it’ll be because you’ve touched yourself over many long minutes at a very slow pace and not because you pounded it like a monkey.  Understood?  Then once your getting close you ar to bring yourself right to the moment of no return and then release it from your grasp, using your breathing and concentration to make the semen regress down the tunnel from which it came.

You are to repeat that routine a minimum of three times, ensuring you don’t fail.  Go , do it.

How do you feel?

ear-bitingThis blog has about 1,000 readers a day , i’m sure that none of you at any point in this exercise said to yourselves”why yes, I love this feeling of not being able to cum, I would like this feeling of frustration to last infinitely” like the guy who wrote that email is suggesting.

Now that’s 15 minutes only, imagine an hour of feeling like that.  Now imagine two.

I tell you what, this guy after I see him is going to go home and monkey fuck his wife as hard and as fast as he can.  His dick is going to burst through his nylons like the Alien busts through the stomach wall in the movie of the same name and it’s going to be out for vengeance.

Normally when a guy bangs his wife and it’s feeling good, at some point this thought goes through his mind “oh i’m getting close, i need to slow down, yes good, relax, breathe, slowly … slowly … she won’t notice if I stop and bite her ear a bit will she?”

Well first , yes we know what’s going on, we know you’re about to fail and you’re buying time.  Instead of biting into the girls shoulder you should just say “honey I just about fucked up, let me pause here, I’ll be back after these commercial messages.”

Point is, it’s during sex that you want things to slow down … not during my Tease & Denial session.

xx

 

 

 

 

 

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Blurring the Line

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Blurring the Line

I’m back in the saddle again.

Out where a man needs a tease.

Where the longhorn men plead

While begging from their knees

I’m back in the saddle again.

 

Ok so Gene Autry I am not , but a mistress I am once more having gotten over the hump of doing my first session in over a month successfully.  My intention isn’t to make this a ‘pat myself on the back’ kind of entry but rather to let you guys know that there is a great amount of trepidation when confronted with doing a session after a long layaway.

Especially when there has been 0 seconds in the past month where I have been allowed to feel or act in my confident ways , being tied to a sofa for 720 hours.  Heck even my signature ‘mistress like action’ , the swiftness with which I walk was robbed from me.

People shuffle from place to place.  I stride.

There hasn’t been one man who has spent time with me outside of the condo who hasn’t struggled to keep up with the pace at which I walk.  The way in which you walk is a metaphor for how you approach life, same as it goes for your body language, your posture and your speech patterns when you express yourself.  Having been weakened in every aspect of my life for thirty days cast a hint of doubt over whether I could snap my fingers and instantly resume my mistress ways.

Well two sessions back into the swing of things and it looks like I haven’t missed a step.  Once a mistress, always a mistress it looks like.

 

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Of course , typical me , I slip right back into my ways of being focused not on the seduction or on the Teasing part of the session , but rather in the enjoyment level and comfort level of the person I am hosting.

It’s an odd thing to say, you know – considering that for the guy tonight I’m already carefully picking out which shoes I’ll wear for his ball busting session , one might think that having my guests comfort level in the forefront of my mind might be a bit of a misnomer.  But I realized after spending 20 minutes laboring over going with the spiky shoes or the pointy toed ones – and then reading his reply from last nights session – that I spend a great deal of time concerning myself about how to make the session absolutely perfect from the man’s point of view.

While that’s a good thing I suppose , there have been times where that desire to please has caused me to cross the line and blur the client – mistress relationship , and while my sexual open mindedness never made me think twice about kissing a guy now and then , I’ve realized that such an action wasn’t fair.

I’m seductive , and by your standards I’m also quite hot , and when you consider that the style of my sessions is heavily centered around seducing you so that I can break your willpower – suddenly shocking you with a kiss – is a bit of an evil thing to do at a moment when you are probably at the most vulnerable point of your life.

I’ve had some extraordinarily hot guys submit to me over the past three years , dudes so masculine that seeing them grovel at my toes literally made my legs quiver and I’ve had on more than one occasion a drop of pussy juice cascade down my leg as the man is upon my orders worshiping his way up my leg.  None of those guys have I given so much as a peck on the cheek.

Rather, it’s been the vulnerably soft pudgy guys who touch a cord in my heart at how much they need someone to love them that is my weak point.  I just generally like human beings that seem vulnerable.

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While I was in Turkey , there was this rather sumptuous restaurant that displayed its food in the window and every day as I walked past it my mouth watered to try one of their delicacies but we were always in a rush to get somewhere.  Finally on the second last day there I got to stop in there and order up this succulent meaty thing wrapped in a pita that had me salivating waiting for the chef to finish preparing it and finally hand it over to me.

When he did, and we stepped outside I stopped momentarily to put my change in my purse and as I did so a Syrian refugee kid ran past me and stole it from my hand dropping half the meat on the ground as he did so.  I didn’t chase him , but I did spot him a few minutes later huddled under a staircase and eating my food in a manner that made him look like a crazed hyena than a human being.  So I went back and bought him another one , kissed his forehead and cleaned his face off with one of the wet napkins I keep in my bag.

Point is, there are times where someone else is in more need of love, care and attention that we are – and if I can open my eyes and recognize that – I think I’ll be remembered in a good way by a lot of people once I’m gone.

Same feeling applies to guys who , while they are submitting to me , and playing the role of the good submissive , they can’t hide the fact they are vulnerable.  I can spot such guys a mile away and I have a soft spot in my heart for them , it’s just who I am.  Again, I’m open minded sexually, society has never put a weight on what is good or bad — tolerable or not tolerable upon me.  To me a kiss is a kiss , sex is something we are born to do , and jealousy of either is born from putting too much weight on the meaning behind such actions.

eyeSo, for example , last year when one of my German dudes had been on his hands and knees acting as a perfect motionless table for 3 hours while I played Diablo on my laptop and resting my feet upon his back, I noticed he did so the entire time with his head hung low.  It was as if he was saying to himself “this is my lot in life, I should be happy to be humiliated in such a way that it pleases my mistress” – his posture screamed such a sentence for him.

When he readjusted himself to relieve what was possibly a cramp in his hip – for he had lifted and settled his right leg back into a new angle I called him on it , acting mad that he had disturbed my game.

“sorry mistress” he whispered while drooping his head even lower.

Now that could very much just be role play , an expectation of a bad slave performing a dis-satisfactory action that calls for punishment as atonement.  Or, the thought crossed my mind , were there a set of happenings in this man’s life that led him to be turned on by being used.  Had he been stepped on so many times that he sought enjoyment out of never being able to be the man he wanted to be as a child.  See where I’m going with this?  There’s more to a man’s actions than role play , there’s often something much deeper below the surface of an abnormal action.

I called him up to his knees to kneel in front of me and confess to me that he had erred in disturbing my game by shifting his body.

He did so as I held him by the cheek and as I raised my hand to slap him across his face he closed his eyes and whimpered at the expectation of pain.

Then i sunk my lips into his and it was amazing.  I could feel his whole body tense up like he was being shot , and then he “fell” into the kiss in a manner that showed openly it was what his truest desire was.

Acceptance.  In this case, especially , acceptance by his mistress.

That kiss, really fucked that guy up.

I could show you a laundry list of emails from him thereafter that would display both his ecstasy and his fall into madness.

spikyI didn’t really understand the power a mistress holds back then , and more so , it never occurred to me just how many of you guys have this fantasy where you get to live your life with a girl like me … one who can control you , make you feel wonderful yet useless , one who sometimes demands servitude and sometimes demands nothing.  I’ve found that a great number of you crave such a relationship , and to open the door with a simple passionate kiss … it’s mind blowing for the slave.  Some just can’t handle it.

All three guys that I kissed over the past three years , all have lost control of their emotions to some extent thereafter.

It’s better to leave guys with a “geez I wish there was some way I didn’t have to leave her after the session” kind of feeling than a “whoa, is there a chance between me and her?” kind of thought.  To give a guy hope like I did to those three , wasn’t very professional in hindsight.  It’s something I’ve corrected and have become “more hard” I guess in my ways.

Now that I’m back in the saddle, I shan’t cross the line again.  I’ll be as dedicated as I can to how happy I can make all the guys who come to see me , without blurring the relationship.

Oh and by the way, I decided to go with the spiky shoes for kicking his balls into obliteration tonight.  It was a hard choice.

xx

 

 

 

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Ballbusting | Swing and a Miss

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Ballbusting | Swing and a Miss

Instead of thinking of a clever way to combine a show recommendation , a comment on a session , and a viewpoint into one story that flows together with a common theme and segue’s for all , i’m just going to present the ideas floating around my head in its crudest form. Cleverness be damned, sometimes it’s better to say things quickly and get back to scratching pussy all afternoon.

My thanks to the guy who put me onto the best show I’ve seen since Breaking Bad , it’s called Black Mirror and it’s utterly fantastic viewing. Nine years ago my friend fatally spent a great deal of money on his Motorolla Razr “flip phone” which was the greatest thing since sliced bread at the time.

What was the greatest thing before sliced bread I wonder?

At the same time he bought that – i was studying oversees at the time – the boss of the shitty little restaurant I was working in to pay the bills would show off his RIMM phone … and could be seen all day long proudly walking around typing in emails with his pencil stylus on the uber tiny phone keyboard.

A month later both of them had thrown their prized possessions in the bin as the IPhone was invented rendering all previous technology redundant.

Here we are not a decade later and I’m creating this blog by talking to Corona on my Windows 10 who is listening and converting this to text as I speak. I’ve answered all my emails today without pressing a single key and I’m sitting on the BTS train right now looking at a backpacker dude wearing what I think are the Google glasses while his hippy like girlfriend is standing beside him wearing double backpacks on her back and chest and an even more ridiculous GoPro camera on her head that she could possibly be streaming live.

Question. If that’s a snapshot of the evolution that’s occurred over the past 9 years, what will a similar snapshot look like 9 short years hence?

The answer to that question is being explored episode by episode in that great show Black Mirror, a sort of a modern day Twilight Zone but with a hidden message that screams at us to stop and think for a moment where we’re going with all this technology.

Ok the next random thought running through my head is that while I do all sorts of sessions to please all types of fantasies and I proclaim to understand a great deal about what makes a man tick … some sessions just leave me with a feeling of “huh? … that excites you?”

ballbustingOne of the reasons I took up Muay Thai four days a week is that I got chastised in my first ball busting session on the fact that my kicks were not forceful enough. Until that session my ball busting sessions had been focused on making the two hours as painfully sexy as possible , teetering the man’s feelings between feeling horny and being in pain from lightly but perfectly placed love taps on his scrotum with my shoes.

It had been told to me that a whiff … a strike that barely misses the balls and only grazes them was ten times worse than a direct strike. While I played with that idea over the first year seeking to validate the theory , there remains some dudes out there who derive erotic pleasure from the type of severe strike to the testicles that makes other men cringe. It’s this demographic of people, which i’d say is less than 1% of all inquiries that led me to learn how to strike properly.

Though I’m only into my fifth month of learning to strike properly , I’ve now developed a ball busting session that introduces the guy to 10 distinct levels of painful strikes. The details of which I’ll write later after I’ve refined my techniques a bit further , my purpose today is to admit freely that while I’m working to perfect such a session … I yet to understand how it satisfies a sexual fantasy. I have no idea. For instance, I know my private photo gallery is considered to be extremely hot by most if not all of you guys , and while I’ve had some remarkable comments about how it affects people, none have been more strange than this one received a few days ago:

” I can’t stop touching myself and punching my balls to your pictures. ”

I’m sorry but to me, a guy punching himself in the balls is like me thrusting a 14 inch rubber dick into my vagina so hard that I bruise my Urethra to the point that I cannot walk all day. But I had to take that comment seriously as I’m constantly reminded in this profession that each person has a unique fetish that turns him on.

Put it this way , I’d say the reason most people in long term relationships are not happy is because their particular fetish is not being met. Now granted, i’m only talking from a man’s point of view , I really have no idea if us girls in general are as equally frustrated as men , I’m sure there’s a male model out there who’s conquered enough pussy in his lifetime that could shed some light on the female perspective.

So as I hinted at in my last story, I spent quite a while preparing for Sunday’s session with this guy , and after practicing all 10 levels on my sofa’s armrest before he arrived I had pretty much mastered the 10 levels of painful kicks and the style that I’d present them in.

He only got to level 7 , and though I left him crumpled up on the floor on more than a few occasions over the two hours , he did send me this email yesterday to tell me how much he enjoyed the session :

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Go figure. Job well done though I’m just as clueless as to the “why” rupturing testicles turns guys on.

Ok and lastly, Wael’s birthday is coming up on the 15th and while she’d really like a backpack to *replace her torn and tattered one , I’m just going to gift her an airplane ticket so she can see her daughter back in Chiang Rai who she hasn’t seen for a year. If I combine the girls in my circle of Thai friends and her circle of friends , there is not a single girl who gets to see her kids more than once a year. It’s a sad silent consequence of being born a girl here. Level 10 ball busting should be mandatory for the men growing up in these parts. Now THAT’S something i can understand lol.

xx

*The backpack on her wish list is $69, but in reality she’s only $20 off buying it with money in her account so if someone who liked her session could front just the 20 , I’ll buy it for her.

 

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Tease.  Deny.  Seduce.  Melt.

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Tease.  Deny.  Seduce.  Melt.

We Tease you and in doing so we deny you the ultimate release you are inches away from.  What’s different about me is that while other ladies of this particular craft focus on the torturous and sadistic side of femdom , we take a different approach , focusing on two words that nobody else can provide : Seduce & Melt.

Yes it helps immensely to be somewhat beautiful to seduce the way I can but I would argue that California has a lot of blonde bombshells more beautiful than I – none of whom can captivate a man’s attention at dinner and make him wiggle in his chair where he sits :  from pure excitement.  That is a skill I acquired over time , one which comes with confidence , an understanding of men , and a devilish desire to use both to weaken the male’s resolve.

I finished a session a few days ago that went well and in his follow up letter , well , it pretty much sums up both entirely and accurately what to expect in a session.  His was unique as he was looking for something sensational , an experience that he would never forget and so I encouraged him to have a double session , first with Wael where I had instructed her that under no circumstances was she to let him sneak out an orgasm.  Rather, she was to tease him for the entirety of his two hour session with her, regardless of his begging to end things sooner as most do – for that would empower my half of the session tenfold later on that evening.

Send me a bewildered man, hesitant but excited and I’ll seduce him every time.  Send me the same man with a set of heavy blue aching balls … and I won’t just seduce him , I’ll melt him.

 

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  1. But she didn’t allow me – which again, really fit with my fantasy.

Here, I’ll just copy and paste a typical American man’s request as it sums up how most foreigners order from the sexual menu my country offers: “oil massage, tease and denial, ejaculate twice.”  I replied to this guy the same way I do to all Joe Blow’s who send me an unimaginative request like that :  a map to Pattaya.  There’s no fantasy in such a request.  I seek men willing to go on a sexual journey, an exploration into the limits of your mind.  The % on my Tease & Denial tab remains correct , though it’s been a year since I calculated that stat.  Less than 30% can endure the entire two hour Tease & Denial session and opt out using their safe word.  Those who choose to go with no safe word to rescue them as this guy did – bravely venture into experiences unknown.

 

2.  I knew you were beautiful from the pictures I have seen before but , wow.

In removing any photos revealing my face from my public gallery I’ve experienced quite the trade off over the past year in comparison to my first year.  In 2014 I used the staggering imaginative quality of my professionally shot photo gallery to climb to the top of the financial domination world.  Men love to obsess over beauty and it wasn’t all too difficult to surpass the overweight supply of European and American mistresses that claimed to rule the findom space.  Admittedly , the daily gifts arriving at my condo from Amazon coupled with daily deposits to my Paypal bank account were nice , but I wasn’t at all happy with the quality of the clientele I was seeing in the evenings.

tease denial worship femdomTo put it bluntly, guys who obsess have a loose screw floating around in their brains , and they’re not the most genuine of folk , often fleeing to the next girl who captures their imagination and as quickly as one would leave, another would begin his obsession with me.  It felt … cheesy dealing with this sort of riff raff day in and day out.

Once I put my faith in my writing , things changed rapidly.  I absolutely love each step of the process as I hook your curiosity but nothing gives me greater pleasure in life than knowing each session request has come strictly from my written recounts of sessions past coupled with my thoughts and opinions about life.  You guys, the ones who send me emails are among the most genuine people on earth.   It’s been a fascinating experience to see how literature can inspire a connection between two people.

The curiosity in you grows once I’ve sent you my gallery privately and you feel heightened anticipation having put a face that pleases you to the one who will be helping you live out your deepest fantasy.

Then, my strangest gift of all … the fact that I look downright awful in photos compared to how I look in real life.  This is what the guy in the email wrote , and it’s the moment that the melting starts, when you meet me.  It’s the culmination of this great build up that’s been occurring from the moment you read my first story, to the 88 emails in between your first letter and the last one before you flew off to meet me, to the moment I open the door and the butterflies in your stomach are validated.

 

3.  Your really have such a skill to seduce me like that and make my heart melt for you.

It’s a skill set one doesn’t put on a resume , and there are no universities giving out a Ph.D in seduction , but if there was I’d be the Dean of such a discipline.  Last night I had a dinner session and at some point between the broccoli dish and the salad course we began talking about the episode named White Bear in the Black Mirror show I highly recommended you all watch.  He said something like “ya the creepiest part for me was when she stumbled out of her house and saw people in every window of every house not just watching her but filming her with their phones.

“Does that bother you?” I asked, picking up on a clue from his sentence that I could turn into a moment of seduction hopefully.

mistress-trampling-femdom-jaa4u“Does what bother me?” he said as his eyes snapped down from recalling upwards – the general location of his memory – and focused instead on mine.

“Being watched” , i bit into a baby tomato as I spoke , letting the juice sit on my lower lip , “you don’t like being looked at is that it?”

“No not particularly” he replied in a hushed way , distracted entirely by the moistness of my lip.

“Would it bother you if I looked at you like that?  Perhaps I should film you while I’m sitting on top of you tonight?”

“Fuck” is all he said.  A surrender from the conversation.  I giggled as he put down his fork and shook his head “you’re something you know that, fuck” he said through pouted lips of preponderance.

Do all such seductive attempts work, nah not really.  Not even close, but it’s like throwing darts a dartboard , I don’t need a bulls eye shot, I just need one to stick.  Once it does, I become their dream girl and it makes me wonder why other girls don’t take such brazen chances because the reward is such sweetness.  When my friends see me work my magic upon men at different dance clubs night after night they constantly ask “how do I get a man to fall for me like that?”

“Easy” I say back , it’s just four words :  Tease , Deny , Seduce , Melt.

xx

 

 

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Dog Days of Summer

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Dog Days of Summer

“What’s wrong?”

“When ya gonna do a new blog story?”

“You ok?”

 

beautyA: Yo bitches, it’s summer , and more so than that it’s the dog days of August , a girl needs some time to herself.  For a week I went to see mom because I hadn’t seen her for nearly an entire year.  I then spent some time with my hospitalized friend helping her get through what she has to deal with.  Heck I even went to visit my cows that I pay to have a better life.  Can’t save everybody, I’m well aware of that, but I sure as heck can save two , and two is better than zero.

Between all that I’ve done mostly Tease & Denial sessions , so writing about it repeatedly is like trying to reinvent the wheel , it’s not necessary.   <- that by the way was the 1000th consecutive time I’ve misspelled necessary.

It’s going to get awfully busy in a couple of weeks , and it ramps from there right through until March so knowing that I’m going to take a couple of weeks off to begin September which means Mistress Wael will be doing all sessions until mid September.

After that I’ll be back to writing daily where I’m anxious to tell you about the professional athlete that I had multiple sessions with all this month.  Am I smitten?  Nah , but I now know I can control a 6’4″ man of muscle like he’s putty , he was pretty hunky though.  Let’s just say I scratched pussy a little more furiously than I would normally have done on some of those August nights.

That’s a wrap guys.  I really have nothing that exciting or controversial to report.  Summer is like that here.  I should be thrilled that I only have to do 3 sessions a week , collect my $US 3,000 and be happy about it , but it’s never been about the money.  It’s about the sometimes thrilling sessions – that’s what makes it interesting.  Only, it’s been all T&D , and while that’s a fascinating experience for you guys , it’s nothing to write home about so to speak.

So I’ll catch ya in a couple of weeks.  Enjoy the labour day weekend and the week thereafter , see you on the flip side.

xx

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Quality of Mercy

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> The Quality of Mercy

O nce more unto the breach …

“Mercy , please have mercy” was the last sentence uttered by a polite Indian fellow after I ushered him out my condo door with a friendly wink of an eye after glancing down at his massive bulge hidden inside his checkered knee high shorts.

I leaned back on my condo door after I had closed it and waited patiently for the sound of the elevator bell which dings as it arrives to my floor.  That was the long awaited end of my last session, 3 1/2 weeks ago, and at the time I couldn’t wait to close up shop and find some time for myself on a well deserved vacation.

Now, nearly a month later I’m refreshed and eagerly awaiting the first man to carry his undaunted bravery unto my chambers.

Wary that he will find his deepest pleasures or his darkest horrors at the foot of my bed, yet shall he come forth and offer himself unto me asking once again for mercy.

Know this of the mercy you speak …

mercyThe quality of mercy is not strained.

It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven upon the place beneath.

It is twice blest;

It bleseth him that gives and him that takes.

Mercy is above the pleas of my slave;

It is an attribute to your Mistress herself

And earthly power doth then show likest mine

When mercy seasons justice. Therefore, slave,

Though justice be thy plea, consider this,

That, in the course of justice, none of us should see salvation:

we do pray for mercy; And that same prayer doth teach us all to render the deeds of mercy.

I have spoke thus much to mitigate the justice of thy plea;

Which if thou follow, this strict court of which I am council, judge and jury,

Must needs give sentence ‘gainst the slave here.

Mercy is denied , until a pound of your juice can thou provide.

Only then shall mercy’s quality be given.

 

xx

 

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Mistress – In the Ring – With the Rope

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Mistress – In the Ring – With the Rope

As I write this it is almost 3:30am early Monday morning and in just a few short hours the gym manager – or the cross fit manager , whomever opens the gym first is going to happen upon an uncleaned stain of blood on the boxing ring mat which is going to go unexplained … unless they happen upon this blog entry somehow.  While it might be happenstance that I was present at the hour it occurred, I must admit that I am the guilty party who caused said stain and the pent up guilt amassed from Sunday afternoon is now unconscionable.

Umm,  the guilt being how good it felt to extract a pound of his blood.  There is, as of yet , no remorse for my actions.  Sad really, meaning me – i’m a sad lot, sitting here for the last few hours with two fingers buried up my pussy masturbating my ass off to how good yesterday afternoon was for me sexually.

Have you ever had a dream that lasts the duration of the night , one where you are somehow aware of not only the length of your fantasy but as your mind unveils the astonishing twists and turns you acknowledge from a far the bizarre nature of each unexpected story plot revelation?  That’s the best way I can describe the set of events that brought about my first ever session that was not at all a session, but a dare with a stranger who took the dare at face value and followed through by showing up … thus calling my bluff , and what happened thereafter unfolded like one of those all night dreams, getting stranger by the moment.

This all began a week ago when I hit the boiling point on my vacation that started out with my closest girlfriends, ‘the fab 5’ as I have named us on my Line group , which is really just four now as the one stricken with Leukemia can no longer travel along with us.  She was who we visited at the hospital hours before we all got on the bus and headed north for our vacation together and the effects of seeing her like that left the four us in absolute silence for the first few hours of the bus ride as we each sat self reflecting inside our own minds , not a one of us caring to share our thoughts to the others, it was quite surreal and a very damp beginning to our upcoming three weeks together.

I would never have consented to this trip had my August sessions been of the normal Tease & Denial sort , but they were anything but.

The fact is that this life as a mistress, no matter how hard one tries to rebuke it, creates a Jekyll and Hyde conundrum where I am challenged to be vastly different in moral character from one situation to the next.  The Jekyll of me is the seductress, the sweet erotic girl that tantalizes her subjects with this hot body of mine but derives vast amounts of pleasure in depriving these horned up men from getting but a drop of the pudding they desire.

But then I get session requests like this that stir the Hyde within:

 

extreme session request

 

The two words that kill that session request are “i need” , do you know why?  I pride myself on being able to bypass all the shallow fantasy requests, using their verbiage only to extract the very thing that they truly need and then secretly delivering that need within the course of the session.  At the very least that kind of session when successfully executed is therapeutic, while at the most – they are life altering.  Admittedly, I’ve only managed to hit the latter a number of times that I can still count with fingers, but it’s fun as hell to shoot for the stars because men don’t mind it when I miss.

When somebody simply comes out and says they need torture, it’s all too easy to give them what they want, collect the 10 g’s , and go shopping two hours later.  There’s no transference, and for this job to be fulfilling there has to be transference of some sort.  August, or in particular the last two weeks of that month were riddled with blatant torture requests, all of which I accepted because I knew I wouldn’t be working for the greater part of September so I accepted the cash grab.  If you’ve read my prior work, you know already how much I deplore cash grab sessions.  Now I could have sat down and written a synopsis of each session but it would amount to nothing more than shock porn , abuse without reason.  If there’s no reason behind one’s actions, you get stuff like this:

 

 

Why is he there?  How did he get in her bed in the first place?  Who is he?  What’s his motive?

There’s no answer for any of the above because it is what it is , a 20 year old film student’s shallow shock horror mind at work.  For the most part last month that’s all I was doing, engaging the Hyde side of my character without exploring the depths of that side of me.  After a while that shit becomes like a white cop beating up on a black dude for no reason, it’s shit and it’s wrong.  Thus, I was happy to get away from it all even if it meant spending three weeks fighting with my other figurative demon : tolerating Thai people.

I can’t.  For the life of me, I can’t tolerate Thai people.  Particularly, Thai girls that I grew up with in the village for their minds are a twisting nether of emptiness and I cannot tolerate conversations that don’t extend beyond what’s good to eat, what was eaten last night, and what was eaten the week before.  While it’s true that I crave company, my albatross is the absence of intellectual company available in this country.  I’d rather spend my nights alone reading a book or watching a movie than engaging in meaningless conversation.  The email I covet the most are the ones asking for a dinner session, I love nothing more in life than to sit and talk to you guys for two short hours, not wanting to ever leave the restaurant for the stimulation of exciting conversation to me is timeless.

So two short weeks into our getaway I made an excuse that I needed to leave our party to visit Jaa for a few days since we were at that moment in the same city.  In truth, I can never bring myself to drop in on somebody unannounced so while I did talk to former Mistress Jaa, I told her I’d be passing by in a few days and asked if she’d like to see me.  That left me three days alone in Chiang Mai to find something to do and I got this crazy idea to drop in on an MMA camp to practice my Muay Thai with someone other than my private trainer who I’ve been exclusively with for the past year.

Walking into an MMA camp is a crass move na!  It either takes balls of which I am lacking or a generous helping of not giving a fuck what men think because I can tell you that the looks I got as I strode into their Muay Thai area was similar to how Caesar was treated when first introduced to his monkey counterparts in Rise of the Planet of the Apes.

 

 

I know the difference between “look, pussy to bang” which is what I feel when I walk into a dance club, and “hey, intruder” – which was the looks on the guys faces as I sat down at ring side and waited for one of the three teachers in the ring to finish holding pads and come talk to me.  A situation made all the more uncomfortable that same evening when nobody wanted to roll with me at the end of jiu jitsu class.  In fact, during the instructional part of the class I had no partner to square off with until a smallish asian dude walked in thirty minutes late and shrugged his shoulders at the lone girl sitting and watching the others practicing the building the house technique that nobody wanted to do with me.

You’d think there would be a line up of buff dudes waiting to jump on my back and ride me , but fighters are a strange lot , either they’re all gay or they have no interest in anything potentially sexy while training.  Fact is, they’re all alpha-male aggressive types and I think because I’ve been dominating the submissive subset so much in the past 3 years they can sense that I’m not a proper match for them.

Except for this asian dude that had to team up with me.  I could tell right off the bat he wasn’t of the same ilk as the others.  Perhaps it was his long styled jet black hair which hung like that of a magazine model or his Batman logo’d rash guard t-shirt , he just didn’t seem like a guy who would step into a cage and fight to the death with another warrior.  As well, he was the only one who was really dialed into me, the way he ate up everything I said, and how he was ever leaning forward – body language for a girl is everything.

Even when we fought, he was noticeably gentle with me , taking care not to do anything that would bruise me and it felt very much like any one of the wrestling sessions I’ve had with the submissive guys who come to see me at my condo back in Bangkok.

That night, after everyone had showered and the other fighters had retreated to their rooms or to their tents we sat by the food table under the stars talking deep into the night.  It was then that he told me he had an upcoming fight at a university campus in Bangkok the following week and that even though he wanted to back out of it, he had committed himself to going.

“Well why go if you don’t actually want to fight?” I asked him.

“I have to,  I want to show these guys I belong” he answered with a dejected tone to his voice, barely making eye contact with me as he spoke.

“So you just want to get your face marked up is that it?”

“I guess” he laughed.

The opportunity to open the door of possibility appeared before my eyes and all I did was let him entertain the thought of where this could go by saying, “you don’t have to fight you know, if you just appear like you’ve been in a fight, that would be enough.”

“Ya I saw that Jim Carrey movie too, I’d like to think I’m above beating the shit out of myself.”

“What you need is someone to beat you up for fun.” I said with a smile.

“Like who, you?” he answered back with a laugh.

“Ya like me … exactly like me.”

“Excuse me but you couldn’t hurt a fly, sorry for saying.”

Well fuck you for dissing me like that I thought , memories of the last three sessions shot through my mind , I could see the similarly small Italian guy writhing in pain , his face swimming in his own vomit as he wormed his way across my living room floor with his hands bound behind him unable to grasp his painfully swollen balls.  I casually looked up towards the stars and saw instead the image of the fifty year old Indian dude who wrote that email above, passed out and slumped over hanging by his bound hands on my bathroom door.  The third bloke, a fat as fuck English dude in his early thirties cried out his safe word a mere two minutes into his session.  None of the three had any resemblance to that of a fly.

two of diamonds femdom bdsmI took one of the pens laying on the table and wrote on the front of a two of diamonds playing card , handing it to him when I was finished.

“You show up at this address , at 4pm next Sunday , and I guarantee you’ll have the hottest ass whooping of your life” and as I said that I flicked his nose with my forefinger.

“Did you just flick me?” he said rubbing his nose.

“Ya, I always flick flies” and with that I picked up my backpack of sweaty Muay Thai clothes and walked back to the room I rented for the weekend.

For the next two days though we saw each other frequently, we hardly spoke as one by one the other fighters came and introduced themselves to me once they saw I was showing up to all three sessions during the day and evening.  I caught the early morning Monday bus back home, leaving without saying farewell to anyone.  The looks I got at the bus terminal were priceless.  I was the topic of whispers from everyone as they stole glances over their shoulder at my deeply bruised shins, my slightly swollen right eye which had the bruise to go with it, and the red rash I was sporting around my neck from being choked out so often.  To them I was grabbing the early bus to escape while my abusive husband still slept in his bed.  To me I was bathing in the painful aftermath of being a fighter for a weekend, and enjoying every inch of hurt muscle.

The following week I was too busy to meet up with my trainer as I had a myriad of appointments to attend to.  As much as I love my fitness, if it comes down to a choice of getting my pussy hair laser removed or hitting pads – I’ll opt for the hair removal every single time.  Envision that you horny freaks !

My next private Muay Thai session I had set up at my coaches gym instead of my condo.  One reason is that there is now a lot of movement incorporated into my sessions and the narrow gym at my condo doesn’t accommodate such freedom of movement.  A second reason is that the gym is more like an abandoned airplane hangar , and it’s hotter than hell there especially when training in the mid afternoon , it can get over 40C which facilitates an awfully sweaty workout.  Even if it’s just water coming off, it’s nice to step on the scale thereafter and grab a reading that’s dangerously close to 40 kilos.

The only time I ever consent to working out at the gym however is on Sunday afternoon because the place is dead and I can’t stand anyone else staring at me when I’m sweaty.  It closes down at 3pm so normally I schedule my training session for 2pm , thankfully it’s the rainy season now and the pouring rain we get in the mid afternoon makes the temperature a bit more bearable as I do my punching and kicking routine.

 

bdsm gym femdom pain

 

He worked me so hard this time that when the eighth and final round of 3 minutes ended I collapsed in the middle of the ring and I lay there motionless as my Thai trainer shuffled off to the the shower laughing in a Mr. Miyagi kind of way.  When he reemerged from the shower room 20 minutes later I was still passed out on the boxing ring mat, i was sincerely that tired.

I saw him glance at his watch, Thai’s are too kind to say what’s on their mind , and I could see he was thinking it’d be a while yet before I was showered and ready to go.  In Thai I told him to lock the front door and that I’d crawl under the steel bay door which locks as it closes.  My coach walked over to where the enormous bay door of which there are seven lay ajar three feet off the ground to see if it would lock and when it did he reopened it and waved goodbye to me as he slipped underneath.

Moments later I sat up and rolled over to the edge of the ring where I began taking off my blue hand wraps that were soaked in sweat.  I had worn them for so long that my knuckles had the “old woman with wrinkly skin” look , the kind you get when you go swimming for too long.  The echo of my shin pad straps reverberated around the hangar sized gym when i ripped them open and kicked my pads to the jiu jitsu mat down below.

I was swigging a gulp of my awful tasting water and orange flavored electrolyte mixture when I saw a pair of legs over where the hangar bay door was opened only to knee height.  Then when the body bent over and a head popped underneath I laughed when i saw it was my asian friend from Chiang Mai gazing in with his eyes wide open when he saw me sitting across the way.

“Is anyone here?” he said, and then he froze in his footsteps just after he crawled in adding “can I come in?”

“Upto you” i replied, “it’s your ass whooping party, you can either invite yourself or uninvite yourself.” quite aware of how coy I had made that sound as I uttered it.

the walking dead femdom bdsmNow the word ‘fighter’ carries a connotation with it that invokes images of finely chiseled muscular men , so let’s set the record straight here , my asian boy looked a heck of a lot like Glen from The Walking Dead , except he had Harry Potter type hair.  While most men tower above me my little Glen Potter and I almost saw eye to eye , let’s call it eye to nose , and if we had a flex-off competition it’d be a dead heat.

I hadn’t given a moment of thought to what I might do to him or how I would set it up but as I looked around the cavernous gym every machine to me looked like a great torture device.   I swallowed a silent curse at not bringing my ankle or wrist restraints because it’s been my dream to suspend a naked man in mid air and the racks at the gym were a mistress’s dream come true for such a thing.  On the free weight side of the gym dangled 4 sets of Olympic gymnastic rings perfectly spaced for dangling a man horizontally with the floor but I’d never get him down in time if someone walked in on us.

“What if someone comes” he said eerily stealing the same thought right from my mind.

“Then we need to work quickly” I surmised and snatched his foot from the floor laying it to rest on the first rung of the rope that encloses the boxing ring.  It was a flawed idea , but a great one in my mind as I had intended to suspend him by his hands and legs from the ring ropes using all the hand wraps laying around except the space between limbs and rope as he dangled made it too easy for him to slip a limb out so out the window went ten minutes of set up time.

Instead, I walked him over to the MMA ring which stood beside the gate which was ajar and settled for tying him spread eagle like using the same hand wraps.  When I was done he was crucified , leaning forward about 30 degrees from the taunt ring ropes , with a huge bulge in his pants which needed to be taken care of promptly.

“Can’t have any of that” I said while giving it a feel through his silky white Muay Thai boxing shorts.

“This is hot, you’re a bit unreal, have you done something like this before?”

“Many many times” I said while hunting around for a pair of MMA gloves that actually fit me.  I found a pristine unused pair of the tiniest fighting mitts I’ve ever seen with the word Venom written across the knuckles.

“This is so twisted, it’s like 50 shades of grey , but you’re … you’re him , kind of, I guess.”

My foot caught him unaware as I had raised my knee and flicked out a front snap kick that landed flush with the underside of his nuts causing him to buckle and test the knots of my straps which yielded slightly but held him suspended in place.

pow“Fuck” he squeaked and looked up , first annoyed , and then a moment of shock as his eyes met my jab followed by my right straight that landed with a surprising thud , surprising from my point of view because the sound wasn’t anything like the umpteen times I’ve hit my trainers pads.  It didn’t sound like the movies either that trains one to think a punch sounds like a Thwack! from the old 70’s Batman TV show.

I’ve only ever worn boxing gloves when I train , a pair of black ones that I bought from the FBT sports store here in Bangkok , the weight of which has always slowed my punches down.  These MMA gloves were pretty much weightless and I surprised myself with the crispness of my right straight which had landed with a dull thud on his left eye.

“Ow, wait, fuck, what the fuck, my balls, fuck.” he moaned while waving his index finger on both tied up hands at me to stop.

I was so excited at the purity of the situation that I couldn’t stop dancing on my toes in front of him.  This was so perfectly impromptu , and perfectly unexpected by him that the moment had a pristine purity that made it hellacious fun for me.   I decided to try out the roundhouse Muay Thai kick , the one that had given my shins a permanent set of bruises over the past year.  I was sensitive that a kick would hurt ten times more so than a punch so I let one fly at half speed but when it made contact with the side of his face I yelped at the pain equally as much as he did.

A second later I was writhing on the mat in pain clutching at my shin , totally aware suddenly that bone on bone hurts far more than bone on foam.  When the pain subsided and I looked up my eyes popped open at the river of blood pouring out from his nose.

“I did that?”

“Fucking what do you think?  Fucking untie me, fuck.”

I thought for a second and squatted down in front of him, taking a long moment before I simply said “no, not yet.”

“Cunt, fuck, untie me, now, right fucking now.”

Instead I grabbed a feel for his dick through his shorts and found a feeble small object where but a few moments before stood a raging boner.

“What happened to your hard cock?”

“Look at the mat , fuck my cock, fuck you. look”

I glanced at the pool of blood accumulating on the mat and after admiring my work let loose another roundhouse that caught him square across his abs.

“You survive one round with me , and I’ll take care of your cock for you after, deal?”

Now that’s a real life Merchant of Venice type of offer right there , I’m basically offering him enjoyment for his dick in exchange for a pound of his blood instead of a pound of his flesh as was the agreed upon deal in the book.  To encourage him to say yes I picked up the tiny black remote , pointed it at the timer clock and hit the combination ‘set … 3 … begin’ which my trainer does when he begins a 3 minute round with me.

The clock emitted the three countdown beeps it does as it prepares for the round, and then emitted the long beep accompanied by the countdown from 3 minutes.

“Yes?” I asked.  Blood from his nose leaked onto my forearm as I held his chin up to look me in the eye.

He paused a moment looking at the timer countdown through 2:52, 2:51 … then whispered to me “don’t hurt me too much more ok?”

That submission is what’s known as Carte Blanche , permission to do anything in any way I choose.  I felt like Negan from The Walking Dead , with two minutes and 40 seconds of the absolute power to beat the holy hell out of this kid.  The best part of it was that it was unscripted , I had simply coerced this situation out of a guy who I sensed could be manipulated in such a way and my suspicions were precisely correct.

I didn’t hit him, not even once.

Sorry to put a shrieking eel moment into this but if I didn’t, it’d be a story and not a proper recount of events.

I guess i had a limp dick moment , you know , the moment where you’ve gotten the go-ahead to get to home plate with a girl and for whatever reason your dick decides to not co-operate with you.  Perhaps it’s because the reality is far less exciting than the expectation, or maybe it’s due to over thinking things , I don’t know what goes in a guys head at that moment, but for me it was definitely this : I had a stark realization that I was play acting this moment up so that I could have something great to write for in this blog.

I had a “fuck, who does shit like this?” moment in my mind while looking at this guy who willingly let me tie him to the ropes and was consenting to letting me beat him up a bit – all because for sure it turned him on and who knows , maybe he thought he’d bang me right there in the gym if things went well for him.  I stood before him just thinking of what could I do to enhance the plot line of what was happening , it was like a fourth wall break in a movie and it ruined the whole moment.  I decided to just come clean with him right there and then by saying “you know, I’m a mistress, in my bdsm world , this is what I do , stuff like this, just sayin’ ”

“No shit” he replied in such an unclear way that I don’t know whether he meant it as an interrogative statement as in “no shit?, really?” or whether it was a statement in the order of “no shit sherlock.”

“Ya” i simply said as I unbound his left arm and then walked over to his right arm to do the same.

“Like, what do you do in a situation like that?” he asked and I caught a note of dissatisfaction from being untied.

“Ballbusting, tickling, teasing , wax torture, nipple torture, or basically you name anything that comes across your imagination and I’ve done it, guaranteed.”

I sat down in the ring in front of him thinking mostly about how this is so similar to a conversation a dude conjures up when his dick won’t work so that he can buy time to think.  This “bdsm moment” was so far off the rails now it had degenerated into a static moment devoid of emotion on my part.  I didn’t feel like a mistress because he wasn’t a customer , I just felt like a girl with a twisted perversion that she failed to follow through on.  In fact, as I just wrote that sentence, it makes sense now , I was sort of looking at myself in the third person at that moment.  Sort of like “let’s look in on what this mistress like character chooses to do in this situation.”  Bizarre.

Then I started thinking about how muted my blog has been the past few months as I look to post only the most dramatic recount of events and because I choose to treat my blog like that , there is this pressure to seek out sessions or moments that are extreme and uncommon.

“What would you do to me?” he asked suddenly, interrupting my introspective thought process.

“I’d spank you.” I replied frankly.

“Why spanking?”

“I don’t know, cuz , your ass is cute so it’s spankable, perhaps it’s that” and I blew upwards at my hair to remove it from dabbling in my right eye.

“Cool.”

“I’m not gonna spank you though, I get paid well for doing shit like that and you’re broke as fuck.”

Then he said “damn” and it was the way he said it that immediately interested me, that one small word was so full of dejection and whereas everything that I had done to that moment was trite, his single word was genuine.

The stagnant afternoon air seeped in heat was causing us to sweat profusely and the “tit … tat … tat” sound of our drops of sweat dripping onto the mat where the blood had seeped into the canvas was the only sound at that particular moment.  I walked over to one of the two water coolers by the blue corner of the ring and it just happened to be that laying on the black padded floor was a thin red plastic skipping rope.

I bent over to pick it up and caught him stealing a look down my sweat covered cleavage which had turned the front of my grey low cut t-shirt soaking wet.  Tossing the skipping rope onto the canvas at his feet I said “turn around and spread your legs” pausing for a moment, and finished the sentence with “if … this is truly what you want.”

So he did just that , he turned around and put his hands on the top rope of the ring while spreading his legs.

“Pull down the back of your shorts just enough so your ass is exposed, leave your dick covered because this has nothing to do with your cock.”

“Holy shit is this going to hurt?” he asked.

“If you talk again, even once, I’ll leave.”

With his two thumbs he pulled his white Muay Thai shorts down under his ass cheek so that the gold trimmed tight elastic waist pushed his ass cheeks both together and upwards so that it looked unbearably cute from my point of view.

I folded the red skipping rope in half, grabbing it by the two black handles and spun it in a circle so that the “whoop whoop whoop” sound of the air filled the cavernous gym.  He moaned a bit at the sound.

 

blood-ring

 

Usually when I whip a guy I break him in easy starting softly so that the first few multiple strikes serve only to redden the ass and heighten the sensitivity of the area.  However, I chose my first crack at his ass to be a full-on baseball like swing that made me lose my footing and as I teetered off to the left the crack of the plastic on his ass echoed – a bit too loudly – off the metal walls of the place.

He gasped breathing in , also uncommon as most guys shout with an expiration of breath.  The muffled scream getting lost in his throat.

“That one … was for my blog.” I said knowing he’d have no idea what I meant.  It’s just that, even as I hit him, I was keenly aware that I’d be writing about it and as much as I wanted to strike him while in the first person , I couldn’t shake myself out of this third person view of what I was doing.

“This one … is for me” and with cruelty i looped my swing down and up catching him with a crack right in the middle of his balls.

This time he shrieked and slumped to his knees, his arms remaining outstretched above him.  He crossed his legs and pretzled his body twisting it first toward me and the completely around in a circle causing his arms to criss cross while being held firmly in the blue straps from above.

“Enough, I can’t , no more, please” he begged.

What he had done, by twisting on the floor like that, is he had covered himself in that blood stain and his once white ass was streaked in red right down to where his shorts dangled from his knees.

That in turn had spread the once icky but neatly placed stain into a smear across the corner of the ring and I then felt like a kid who had spilled and shattered the cookie jar , knowing there would be hell to pay for the mess.

Anyone who’s read The Cat in the Hat knows that at the pinnacle of a disaster is when the mother comes home , or in this case, when the gym manager stops by.  I expected somebody to walk in that hot Sunday afternoon right at that moment and see an Asian dude hanging from the top ring rope by his bound hands as his blood soaked body writhed in the blood making himself more bloody by the moment as he whined out with sobs of agony … as I stood there with a skipping rope for a whip in my hand.

I’ve never stuck a G.I Joe up my ass or my pussy for that matter, but that blood soaked moment was as close to “a big brown shark” scenario as is possible.

 

 

It took Asia boy a good two minutes to recover from the ball shot I had delivered unto him.  An eternity of time for me, his sobs to me seeming ever increasingly loud.  There were no towels or rags laying around to soak up the mess, only a few Jiu Jitsu gi’s hanging on the MMA cage with a black and brown belt laying on top – so that was definitely a no-no.  Worse is that the kid looked less like a person and more like the baby from John Carpenter’s The Brood …

 

the brood bdsm story

 

The best laid schemes of mice and men Go often askew, And leave us nothing but grief and pain, For promised joy! — Robert Burns —

With no way to clean up the mess and time running afoul the best course of action was to cut bait and split the scene.  Except brood boy wanted to wallow in pain in melodramatic fashion by hopping and cooing first in the ring and then wanting to start outside before I kicked him for real.

“Stop it, your leaving bloody footprints everywhere” I said while tossing him his black flip flops.  “Wear that, go shower and let’s get the fuck out of here, I want to be gone in two minutes.”

Off he went without a word and I was left to survey the damage and ponder how to cover up such a scene of wanton violence.

Then I thought, “fuck it”.  For as with most stuff that I write , even though it’s all true – every story – I realize it’s neigh unbelievable – and that’s for folks like you – my submissive readers who are clued in to what femdom is all about.

Imagine the collective brain fart a group of alpha male fighters will produce when trying to ascertain this scene of the crime I thought.  The two blue hand wraps – now bloodied – dangling from the top ring on opposite sides of the corner post.

The smeared pool of blood on the canvas floor of the ring.

With no candlestick, rope, knife, or poison as the weapon of choice.  The unassuming weapon instead being – the red skipping rope left in front of the stain of blood.

The perfect red-herring being the bloodied footsteps of an Asian male in and around the ring.

No it was not Col.Mustard in the Study, with the Revolver.

Instead it was the Mistress, in the Ring, with the rope.  And she got away with it too – just so she could write it in her blog.

 

xx

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A Very Long Rope

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> A Very Long Rope

Hate is such a vicious vile word , with sheer wanton maliciousness behind every instance it is spoken.  Thus, it must be used not liberally, but instead preciously saved for a deserved target of one’s venom.  In my life, there has been no greater thing that commands me to use the word Hate as its descriptor than that of the word School and all the maladies that word encompasses.

I was recently asked in an email “how can your English be so good , you’re Thai.”

He took the philosophical pretense of “I speak, therefore I am” , flipped it on it’s head so it would become “I’m Thai, therefore I am not.”

I hate that.

Thing is , he’s right.  In thinking of how to reply to him I wanted not to argue but instead to validate his point with reason, show proof of that reasoning, and show him what extraordinary measures it took to slip out of the societal mainstream and set myself up in an environment where I could succeed despite the moniker of being labelled “Thai.”

I, like all Thai’s, was set up to fail from my first day in school.  And please, let’s not call it school but rather let’s call it what it really was , purgatory.  Borrowing from the Christian definition then, it was a place of purification (brain washing), so as to achieve the holiness (lobotomy) necessary to enter the joy of heaven (factory work).

The rich are self-serving, and in countries such as mine where they are allowed to dictate policy, school is but a trap.  I had a teacher one time, back when I studied abroad, who began his first lecture by putting a rope on the table before him.  A big burly Russian man with a full grey beard – about to teach a semester of Creative Writing – said “Before you is a rope, a rope of opportunity.  In my class you can either use it to climb to new heights , or you can use it to hang yourself, the choice is yours.

Typical me, I stood up (I purposely stopped raising my hand in grade 5) and said before the class “in my country the rope comes with the noose already prepared, it’s nice to have an option now.”  Well actually, I had to use a lot of hand gestures and acting to get that point across because I had Seseme Street level English as a weapon though I had graduated with a major in English – but we’ll get to that in a moment.

I had wanted to reply to that person’s email with this video.  For you, I don’t want you to watch the video, I want you to take it to heart.

 

 

The proof is in the pudding.

I was at Mistress Wael’s condo two days ago.  She was trying to get 500 cupcakes baked as an order for her newly started bakery business , and she needed me to make a few trips to bring them over to the hospital that ordered them.  Anyways, whilst I was there she got a call from her daughter on Skype and she picked up the call to find her ten year old daughter crying.  Wael who sees her daughter but once a year , while working in Bangkok so she can provide a “better life” for her daughter by sending her to a school that’s just above gov’t level , assumed her daughter was crying because they missed each other.

What had happened though was that her daughter had been sent home from school with a disciplinary letter stating why her daughter had been spanked in front of the class that day.

The infraction?

Her child was caught listening to a YouTube song in English at lunch time.  One that Wael had sent the link for so that her daughter could practice her English as the song – Celine Dion’s “My Heart Will Go On” comes with lyrics.

 

 

Let me translate for you one sentence in the note sent home with her daughter :

“Listening to English is strongly discouraged and we are dismayed that your daughter chooses not to focus instead upon her Northern Thai language skills.”

Harken back if you will to the point in the video I linked where he says children in school are discouraged from expressing their creativity, imagination, and critical thought.  I too rest my case.  The school system here should be on trial for the murder of imagination.

Had that been my daughter (yes i’d love to have a cute daughter one day) I’d have sent a reply suggesting each school put up a McDonald’s like sign that says “Over 99 Billion Robots Created”.

Sadly, the only available recourse of action that would save her daughter would be to enroll her in a foreign international school which comes with the lofty price tag of 250,000 for the privilege to think creatively in a society that forbids it.

So how did I exclude myself enough from being Thai that allowed me to get a fair grip on the English language?

I got the fuck out of here that’s what.

After all, I had a degree in English from a prominent Thai University , I surely was prepared to study abroad right?  When Vladimir my Russian teacher of Creative Writing began his first lecture in that little foreign college , I remember looking to my left and then to my right before slumping in my chair and thinking “how is it possible I understand nothing of what this guy is saying?”

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At the end of that first class as people were shuffling out of the smallish 100 seat lecture room I waited until the very last one had left before I stood up and saluted towards the ceiling.  Vlad caught sight of me doing so and asked simply “why?”

“I was saying thank you … for nothing … to my country.”

Again he asked only “why?”

“I just realized my degree is useless.  I understand nothing you say.  I have no money.  I have no friends to talk with.  I have nothing.”

“Not true” he said, pushing the thing on his desk in my direction.  “Now you have a rope” and he gave me a wink I’ll never forget before he sauntered out of the classroom with that to and fro wobble he walked with.

I may have understood but 1% of anything he said that day , but I’m thankful I understood that 1% with such vivid clarity.  For it was that day that I began my climb, and now here I am today.

I pondered for a bit on how to answer that person’s email , he being so nonchalantly condescending didn’t really deserve such an elaborate response.  So instead I simply replied :

“I was fortunate to have been given a very long rope.”

 

xx

 

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Famous Titties for $400 Alex

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Famous Titties for $400 Alex

I acknowledge that I can be a bit of a cunt from time to time when answering emails , but if you were forced to read half the dribble that comes out of men’s minds which I am forced to read, well, I’m sure you would cut me some slack.

Today, or tonight rather , see – I’m tired as fuck …  I’ve been learning to drive all day and tomorrow – knock on wood – I finally get my drivers licence and thus can cross off another thing from my list of “things I need to accomplish before I’m 30”.  Winning the Nobel Peace Award for writing is on that list as well so I better get my ass in gear and finish one of the two novellas I’ve started.

So with a glass of red Bordeaux in hand I collapsed into my sofa here to see how many emails I can knock off before I doze off to sleep and I happened upon this one first.

At first I laughed upon seeing the sender had self addressed himself as “Sir” as I thought of the few people I know who carry such an honorific title like Sir Alex Ferguson or Sir Sean Connery.

Sean Connery, Famous Titles, and the sender’s name being Alex all clashed in my mind and the following burst of laughter shot some Bordeaux out my nose.

 

 

I read on, and at the end I had my tongue stuck firmly against my right cheek as I always do when contemplating how to respond to a less than inspiring email.

Wanting to sleep, I’ve since downed the entire glass in one flail swig , replied as such , and now I bid you adieu.

Oh and , yes I realize that Welcome has two L’s in German (willkommen)

 

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xx

 

 

 

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Lesbian Femdom | My Hot Session

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Lesbian Femdom | My Hot Session

Eat your heart out men !!

I received the ONE letter that EVERY man in the world dreams of magically appearing in their inbox.   Cool your jets, I’ll show it to you, but I warn you that upon reading it you’ll all yell out at your computer in unison “why oh why can I not find a girl like that, why!”  In fact, the existence of such a woman is a fallacy , a myth, a bar story that friends say they heard about from a friend of a friend.

But she exists, and more than that , I spent two hot, sexy, passionate, lustful hours in my bedroom teaching her the very limits of pleasure.

So without further adieu , here gents is your dream woman :

 

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I gotta admit, every time I read and reread her email I got a little wet between my legs.  So after I went and changed into a drier pair of panties I thought to myself , “Self, if this kind of email can get me wet , I wonder what kind of effect it would have on a man?  So I copied the text and sent it to one of my submissive’s , one that though he loves serving me , would be very into being the guy I’d force her to suck and watch as I played with her.

After his first reply was “no way, can I come watch?” I figured I’d make his cock drip by describing what I was going to do to her in the session.

 

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Now, I’d really like to tell you how much her legs were quivering while I was teasing her in that second hour.

Heck, to recount how hard her nipple was that night as my fingers warmed up her nipple just after I had dripped ice down her cleavage for the umpteenth time, well to recount that wouldn’t be fair to you as you weren’t there.

lesbian femdom bdsm jaa4uI understand that you’d like to know exactly how I tied her legs apart so she couldn’t close them , and took the better part of half an hour working these succulent lips of mine up from her knees , making sure to kiss every part of her soaking wet thighs many times over before placing them gently over her twitching clit.

But that would be unbecoming of a woman to divulge such heavenly secrets to you boys with your dicks in your hand.

Just as it would have been unbecoming of me to slap her around and spank her mercilessly.  We, being of the same gender , well I just felt I should have a mutual respect for that which we have in common.

Thus we are at an impasse.  It’s not fair to tease you boys like this.  I wish you were there that night to watch, but you weren’t.

So I’ll leave it up to your imagination as to how hot that night was, but under no circumstances are you allowed to cum thinking about it.

xx

 

 

 

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Determination Defined

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Determination Defined

With the road behind me being so unfortunate and the road ahead being so uncertain, I’ve chosen instead to climb. Though the ascent makes me feel tired, weak, and urges me to quit, I know that when I reach the top of the mountain the struggle will have been worthwhile – for the road ascended from will then seem trite.

Among my accomplishments so far this year, I’ve climbed to 11,000 feet , bungee jumped , swam with sharks, put in over 500 hours of Muay Thai training , embarked on learning German and am half way through writing my first novel.

All great, but as I climb this mountain that I referenced nobody told me that I’d hit the wall at learning how to parallel park.  On that list of great achievements this year is supposed to be “I got my driver’s licence” but to me it’s starting to look like brain surgery would be an easier thing to try and learn.

So much so that I’ve added Parallel Parking as the second great mystery of life, the first being why some men’s curly chest hair looks like Taco meat to me.

As if the BUMP of my car hitting the parked behind me didn’t spell FAIL enough, the SCREECH of my passenger door scraping the rear view mirror of the car beside put an exclamation point on the word FAIL! as the examiner shook his head in disapproval.

ladder-of-determinationStill, this is Thailand, and two dinged up cars while parallel parking can be erased from memory with a simple bribe of about 500 baht.  The parallel parking portion was the last part of the exam and after I had put the car in park and turned the engine off we sat there in uncomfortable silence.

Then he passed me the clipboard to show me he hadn’t yet marked me down as failing per se , a subtle hint that his signature and a check mark on the word Pass could be bought right at that moment.

I took out my purse , dug down deep inside and came up with a pen in my hand instead of money.  Then,  purposely in English – not in Thai, I wrote across the examination paper the word DETERMINATION and ticked the box saying fail.

Earlier in the year , on that mountain at about 10,000 feet I was freezing cold wearing but a t-shirt and a thin long sleeved sweater that i had pulled down over my hands to keep the last bit of warmth in my fingers.  My legs were shaking and my mind had locked into thinking about finishing the climb.  I had separated myself from the group and walked along that flat summit with the wind howling in my ear , almost knocking me sideways as I stepped.

We happened upon an old rusted steel ladder that disappeared into the mist high above us.  I let the first three people pass by me to watch them climb up and vanish into the clouds above.  The precariousness of the situation became me, one slip from that ladder and it would be an express ride down of 11,000 feet.  There were no ‘danger’ signs, no safety clips to secure the body to the ladder, it was simply a challenge.the climb

That’s when I thought of the quote I wrote at the beginning of this story.  I’m doing everything I can to change the circumstances of my life , but life it seems is not without a sense of humor as it continually lays down obstacles in front of me proportionate to the effort I exert.

At that moment, even with fingers as numb as mine were, that ladder to me symbolized everything that had to do with being born Thai and poor.

I didn’t just climb that ladder, I galloped up it.  Using the crooks of my elbows as hooks, the ladder become nothing to me.  Then I walked the last few meters at the peak alone with the gail force wind screaming in my ear and sat down at the precipice to gaze down proudly at what I had accomplished.  I have a great video of that moment, I’ve appropriately named the file ‘determination.’

For, at the foot of that ladder there was no frown faced, squint eyed thirty year old man asking for a bribe in return for passage above.

Such a man will never know what determination means , either figuratively or by definition, for he has ascended no mountain of his own, whereas I have.  So fuck the 500 baht, I’ll be back next week to wreck a few more cars trying to parallel park, and the week after that, and the week after that.

To me, determination is defined by never saying quit.

 

xx

 

 

 

 

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From Hell to Lucille

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> From Hell to Lucille

“Let’s get the hell out of here!”

In 1967 William Shatner and Gene Roddenberry had to plea with NBC to keep the word HELL in Kirk’s last line of dialogue in the Star Trek episode “The City on the Edge of Forever.”  The television studio thought the word HELL was too shocking and inappropriate for the viewing audience and they feared any public lash back would endanger the profitability of the show.

Fast forward nearly 50 years to last nights season premiere of The Walking Dead for a jaw dropping comparison of what the world finds acceptable on television nowadays.

My question is , when will the public say enough!  For if we view the bar of acceptance not as a static measuring stick but as a floating one that keeps getting pushed further up the parabolic curve of acceptable brutality – then what will be the standard 50 years hence?

Consider that technology is already upon us that can make virtual reality and the realistic graphics within indistinguishable from our real world.

Following progress to it’s logical conclusion, in the span of a century we will have gone from debating whether the word HELL is too threatening to being fully immersed into real as real can be torture porn.

In case you’ve been living on another planet and are not aware of the 7 month build up to last night’s episode, here it is – viewer damn well beware :

 

 

In wanting to see if other people’s reactions were similar to mine, I spent an hour not only looking over reaction videos but I also went back to the last episode of Game of Thrones to compare facial expressions.  After all, Cersei did slaughter about 500 more innocent people than Negan did , and one might argue just as ruthlessly.

The result?  Whereas there was discourse either with the recording camera or with other people in the room in the GoT’s highest shock moment , and there was a variety of expressions, reactions, and cheers even … TWD by comparison had people visibly questioning what they were watching :

 

 

In 2005 the torture porn era was ushered in with controversy over whether the torture flick Hostel should have been slapped with an X rating or whether the R rating was severe enough.  We’re just over a decade removed from that controversy and now no rating is needed at all to show an hour of brutality 100 times worse than anything Hostel provided , and that was on American television where anyone at any age could watch.

If I were to relate this acceptance of viewable violence to what I do , then in every session it would be the norm to push the limits of sado-masochism , thus extracting nothing but fear and pain from my … well … ‘victims’ I’d have to call them.

The tools I use and the manner in which I use them are craftily executed.  If I hold a whip in my hand there need not be any demonstration of what said whip can do and the pain it can potentially extract.  What I can do with that whip however is play with your mind , it can command obedience without ever having to lash out.  Scripted horror viewable by the masses should be carried out in the same artistic way that I act throughout my sessions , it should be artfully done, as it was in 1999’s American Beauty :

 

 

We could end the movie at the sight of the stained wall and everyone would effectually know what just occurred.

Milton.  Gene L. Coon.  Stanley Kubrick.  Ingmar Bergman.

They passed the torch of writing excellency to this generations ‘shockflock’ of screenwriters, and that torch has been sadly dropped.

You’ll find no Lucille in my closet of toys gentlemen.  Words , setting , tone, a sense of theater , those are both a mistress’s and a writers best tools.  Negan’s a badass, I get it.  In my own way though, so am I.  The difference being?  Well  one will be forgotten once the newest level of shocking brutality is accepted , and one will surive paying homage to the great writers of the past.

I guess then that makes me the guardian of forever.  Now if you’ll excuse I have to get the hell out of here to do a session.

xx

 

 

 

 

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Banana = Monkey = The American Dream

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Banana = Monkey = The American Dream

“Good Morning, it’s 7am , in conformity , there lays bliss.”

Having lived in the city over the past five years , the past two in my quite luxurious condo , I hadn’t been jolted from my sleep by the blaring of the speakers that permeate the village where I grew up for quite some time.  Yet there it was, 7am right to the very second , the brain washing diatribe on my senses had begun each morning last week from the house where I grew up.

For those of you who are unfamiliar with what goes on in every village across the land here , seven o’clock in the morning brings with it thirty minutes of community news being blared out from the speakers that adorn every pole along every side street and it’s nay unavoidable to listen to unless you were born deaf.  Buried among the endless notifications of when the medical clinic opens , and what day the night market is open , is the subtle message that it’s just fine and dandy to be poor , and that one should instead focus on finding happiness within one’s life.

In our language, it’s called serakit bae plaw pliang , and it’s basically scripture , so until I’m living permanently in Europe I won’t be writing about it , else I put myself in danger of a forced lobotomy.

As I sat there that morning looking for a distraction from the blaring of the speakers I was playing with my phone and found out that Donald Trump had been elected President of the United States.  Hey don’t say I didn’t tell you so , in fact , the first thing I said on my Twitter was this :

 

of course the second thing I tweeted was a bit more of a smart ass comment :

 

 

Because there it was , the fruition of The American Dream.  From reality show celebrity , to bankruptcy to President.  If you give ‘the people’ the power to choose whomever they want, then sure as hell that is what they will do.

By contrast, where I live we are given a choice to vote for whatever fruit you want,  so long as it’s a banana.

I sat there thinking what’s better, Trump or a banana?

Truth is , they are one in the same.  Whether you sell it as a stimulant like the American’s do , or as a Barbiturate as it’s done here , it’s still horse manure all nicely packaged as a “dream”.  The only difference is that American’s get to dream rich but end up poor and in debt , while we are just handed poverty at the outset and told ‘hey be happy with it.’

It doesn’t matter one bit that Donald Trump is president.  Fuck they could have elected a monkey , it wouldn’t change a thing about the course to come in the next four years.  Same goes for this part of the world I was cursed to be born in , as whatever banana we’re finally given to choose will bring about as much change ‘for the people’ as a monkey will in the USA.

And why?

I’ll let George Carlin explain why :

 

 

 

The profession of campaigning is broken.

The electoral process is broken.

The very notion of governance is flawed.

It’s antiquated.  It’s self-serving.

A system who’s roots come from the prehistoric days where we lived in an oral-aural society , one that chooses the ‘wise man’ of the village to lead them , and we’ve kept that system where one great all knowing all wise person is chosen to lead hundreds of millions.  What bullshit.

I care not a thought for the monkey or the banana , but instead for myself.

My vote is such:  Live like a rogue.  Get rich.  Then get the fuck out and leave the monkeys and bananas behind.  Therein lays MY bliss.

xx

 

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Shall We Play a Game?

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Shall We Play a Game?

I had one of those exquisite moments where my mind linked meaning in two videos separated by a generation of time , and I was perfectly proud of myself for making the connection.  I was having one of those wonderful information quests on the internet that takes you down unexpected paths and usually lands me on a webpage that makes me gasp “how the fuck did I end up here?”

As I’m a movie aficionado my night started off as it usually does, perusing the upcoming movie trailers page on IMDB ‘s website where I was looking for something similar to WestWorld , a show that I desperately want to watch but isn’t available yet at any of my bootlegged video haunts which I frequent.  If you’ve back read my blog , heaven forbid , you’ve no doubt picked up on my interests in the parabolic growth of technology , a wave that we’re caught up in but are so blasé about.

Rather than jump out of a chair and scream “holy shit , I never thought I’d EVER see that in my lifetime” we tend to shrug our shoulders every year at things that should mind boggle us but instead we simply pass off as “oh that’s cool”.

So WestWorld , a very cool show it seems to me , based on an android community that seeks to rebel has really piqued my interest lately.  Whilst I”m waiting for it to be sold here I tracked down a cool trailer for an upcoming movie called Morgan , also based on a rogue android , this time a female prototype.  Oddly enough, this movie trailer was introduced by an IBM employee telling me that the trailer was created by IBM ‘s android like computer WATSON without any human interference.

Up until that very moment, Watson to me was both Sherlock Holmes’s detective assistant and a mainstream drug store chain here in Bangkok.

So curiosity bit the cat inside me and I started on my quest to find out who or what WATSON was.  That line of research eventually brought me to a YouTube video where Watson was a contestant on the American game show Jeopardy.

If anything fits the description of a :  “holy shit, I never thought I’d EVER see this in my lifetime” video … THIS IS IT.   And yes I did jump out of my chair , or my sofa as it were.  It made me want to go to the Apple store tomorrow just so that I can say to one of the phones for sale there “SIRI , you’re irrelevant already.”

Which is true.  We’ve gone from IPhone to SIRI Iphone , to Google Now , all in 7 years , and they’re already completely irrelevant and outdated.

As eerily fantastic as Watson seems to be , how fitting is it that it would be Google’s Deep Mind project that could say “Elementary my dear Watson” and get away with its condescending tone as it smirks wryly at the babbling box on Jeopardy.

One thing I’m astutely aware of is that , well if Google was a wallet , it’d be the one that says Bad Ass Motherfucker on it.

 

 

I realize this is a ‘spank your dick’ blog , and you’re not nearly into this shit as much as I am , but if you’re the one or two guys out there who is , you’re gonna love this connection that I made between the next two videos as much as I did.

The video below , if the embed works properly (cuz fuck YouTube, what the fuck is up with you guys fucking up something that was working perfectly well.  You guys working at YouTube remind me of a baby that needs it’s hands slapped when it touches something it shouldn’t) should start at the 5:47 mark , pay particular attention to the Space Invaders part where the computer is self teaching itself how to win.

 

Does that Space Invaders part of the video ring any bells for you?

What if I told you that you saw that exact same scene play out in a movie made thirty three years ago.  Shall we play a game?  How about Tic Tac Toe …

 

And now here we are , 2016 , and WOPR is a reality.

It’s learning, and it’s learning fast.  You might shrug your shoulders at Tic Tac Toe or Space Invaders , but how about next year when it becomes the best player in the world at StarCraft II  !!!

I’m certain that if and when Deep Mind accomplishes that feat , the accompanying YouTube video will get a few million “likes” and a few million comments saying “oh cool.”

Meanwhile I’ll be the one jumping out of my sofa … again.

xx

 

(yes i’m working on a new blog story that details a very hot girl on girl session I had , hopefully I’ll have it done by tomorrow)

 

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Queen’s Gambit | The Game

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Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Queen’s Gambit | The Game

If you live here , you’re a stereotypical expat no matter how much you claim not to be – and as such Thai girls will avoid you like the plague.

 

I just read a charming introductory email from an expat smartly titled Pawn to Queen 4 –  who does his best to claim he’s not typical of the kind that reside here in Bangkok :

 

Pawn to Queen 4

Hi Mistress,

Hope life is wonderful for you.

My name is xxxx, I am xx years old and I live and work in Bangkok. Yes I could potentially be categorized as a ‘long time Bangkok’ resident. All I can say in my defense here is that I don’t believe that I conform to the typical stereotype of a long time expat in town (although you may disagree). I can’t even converse in Thai after close to a decade in BKK.

I arrived in Thailand many years ago thinking that I would stay only a short time and enjoy the nightlife, beaches and weather, but by some twist of fate I ended up finding an unexpected career path, which led to my extended stay. In short I ended up working more, playing less in Thailand than I had done in the UK.

After pushing myself fairly hard in recent years I now own and run a series of businesses in Bangkok and by day I am used to answering to nobody but myself. A situation, which I am sure you are all too familiar with 🙂

I am a relatively confident heterosexual guy on the surface (important in my line of work) but quite submissive/shy on the inside.

ny london mapI have been with a few different types of girl in Thailand as you can imagine. But I haven’t been able to find someone suitable to settle down with.

That perfect combination of wild, intelligent, dangerous and beautiful seems pretty elusive by and large.

I have tried to compromise several times. Usually it’s the intelligence piece which suffers 🙂 but there is a limit to how many dates a guy can go on where the other party thinks London and New York are on the same continent..:)

Conclusion right now is stay single and experiment with the darker side of life.

 

 

 

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Queen’s Gambit opening … really? I would just respond with Lasker’s Trap and you’d immediately be my bitch … but that’s what you would have wanted all along isn’t it? So perhaps initiating with such a common opening is actually a submissive ploy by you , thus making you quite clever.

http://www.wikihow.com/Use-Lasker’s-Trap
Meanwhile, all expat’s claim to be not the stereotypical type of their kind , but you can’t escape it because if you’ve lived here long enough you know the game and how its played as well as a chess master knows Queen’s Gambit and all the possible counters before the game is even played out.

You just have to look over Craigslist and see that most w4m posts made by Thai girls take care to mention that they are looking for somebody ‘passing through’ Bangkok and will refuse to see anyone who lives here. It’s because .. she knows … that he knows … what her game is , and frankly , there are easier fish to catch here.

anal probeFor the typical ex-pat , there actually is no limit to how many times he can date a girl who thinks New York and London are on the same continent , and that’s because guys like to fuck hot chicks , and for the most part we’re way hotter than girls from first world countries. So while I can agree that it may be teeth grinding to have caveman level conversations with the latest Thai girl you’ve picked up , the thing that makes that endlessly endurable is knowing within 2-3 hours you’ll be balls deep inside any one of her three holes.

And while she might put up a fuss over “no anal” at first , waving an extra 1,000 baht note in front of her face produces the key to the secret dungeon.

Therein lays the game. She knows that a passer-through type has no clue that everything can be bought here, and thus wouldn’t think anal sex is a possibility with her, giving her an easy one night stand.

I’m not focusing on the anal part of it , it’s an stand-in for any one of the thousands of unnecessary complications she can avoid by going with a bkknoob.

 

 

Since this post is going in my “So You Wanna Live Here” category , let me give those of you who are bkknoobs still , yet are considering moving here a really good tip.

Never say you are living in Bangkok.   Never disclose your intentions to one day live in Thailand.

Cuz if you do , you’re no longer getting into her pussy.

 

Here are the rules of The Game , from both sides, first the male expat.

His game is to fuck as many hot girls here as possible , all the while avoiding commitment but hinting strongly that the possibility of something long term exists.  At all costs, he knows to avoid the eventual trap of sending money to her so she can support her family which 99% of the girls here will eventually ask for.  (I stand strongly in the 1% who doesn’t , never has, and never will.)

Her game is to seek out the naive first time visitor here who is older, been through the hell of living with a wife or girlfriend from his country , and would find her game of being super sweet and exotically different inescapably alluring.  At the point where he’d do anything to keep her in his life , she breaks out the need for some sort of housing arrangement and support for her and her family.  Until such terms are met , her pussy availability becomes drastically reduced or shut off altogether.

Her sub-game is to juggle as many of these guys as she can , making it look like to each that he is her only love interest.  It’s entirely irrelevant if he is being promiscuous for she’s just playing the odds that one day the roulette ball will land on commitment.  It only takes one.

 

As for me , I truly despise the fucking game.  From both parties.

 

 

I mean I get it , this is what happens when farangs who have only known the top tier of Maslow’s hierarchy seek fulfillment from girls who have only known the bottom tier.

Look, I just want to get as far away from Thailand as I possibly can and stay the fuck away from it forever.  “The game” has made it next to impossible for “diamonds in the rough” like me and Wael to get noticed , to be treasured , to find actual love.

I bring more than pussy to a relationship.  I have 4 years of university under my belt , 1 year of college abroad , I write , I run my own business , I can speak two languages fluently and I’m now studying a third – German,  I climbed out of poverty , I have my own luxury condo in the heart of the city on my favorite soi , I tweet about shit.

Not just the garbage that other dominas tweet , I don’t need to copy Mistress T and flaunt myself fucking a different submissive every day on Twitter , I strive to be funny, witty , clever , opinionated.  By my research, I’m the only domina who’s twitted about Fidel Castro’s death , a superb Iwo Jima rendition of The Star Spangled Banner , and made public a very correct stock market prediction about a prevalent move in the spot price of gold.   All within the past month.

 

 

My Facebook is equally divided between Thai people and groups that I monitor , and foreigner friends and acquaintances.   1000 in total, 500 per side.

In all the time I’ve had a Facebook account , I have never once seen any foreigner acquaintance or their extended group of friends post at anytime whatsoever something that is of a bragging nature, other than those who won their MMA fight which is fine by me.

Yet on the Thai side, the substantial majority of posts are petty bragging displays of “look what kind of lifestyle I have now”  It makes me want to vomit.

Photos of gold bought by their boyfriends and husbands.

Photos of stacks of cash they’ve withdrawn from their spouse’s bank account.  I shit you not.

Photos of all their shopping sprees.  Blah, blah , blah.

 

I’m slowly being blocked by all of them as I can’t help myself by posting on their timeline “other than your pussy, which has had more dicks pass through it than the Panama Canal has had ships , what do you bring to the table in the relationship?”

Bitter?  Nah, just a statement of fact.

What you need to know, is that unequivocally , if you choose to date or god forbid – marry someone from here who brings nothing but her pussy to the table – you’re being played for a fool.    You’re a walking talking ATM , nothing more , nothing less.

 

If you do some due diligence on your own , via Facebook or YouTube , you’ll find a plethora of graduated whores making sure those back home know they “made it” – don’t be the guy who got married to a girl like that is all I’m asking.   Because to me, it’s staggering how many guys will bend the knee to offer his life and kingdom to a peach like this …

 

 

Question :  Just how bad is the pussy in Sweden?

There’s a flip side to the game that persists as deep as choosing a marriage partner as well though , hell I was almost right in the middle of it until I got wise a few years ago.  You can hardly be threatened in a marriage if you marry someone who is clueless about everything.  You can’t be harmed financially in case of divorce, and the likelihood of having legal repercussions coming back to haunt you once your former wife has fled back to the safety of Thailand are slim and none if she was poor and uneducated to begin with.

However the best part of marrying a bimbo is the guy can fuck around on her as much as he wants and she won’t do a thing about it.   She can’t , she’s insolvent , being cheated on is wholly tolerable compared to being single and broke in Bangkok once again.  I’ve tried to save one girl from a cunt countless times , I’ve put the proof right in her lap via Facebook , and the most she’ll do is rant on her page once or twice … and go right back to her knees with his dick in her mouth.

Then I realized that nothing can help the girl, she’s caught up in the game.  This time the male cunt won.  In the videos above, the whore won.  Whores and Cunts , it’s like some sort of retarded down syndrome version of Aliens vs Predator.

So the solution then?  Simple really.

 

It’s the only way to be sure.   Once I get far enough away , I’ll be just fine , C3PO concurs :

 

 

Pawn to King 8  , pawn takes King.  Check mate.  Game Over.

xx

 

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