Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Part 1 : Snake Food
Are you a smart mouse? Really? Smart enough to not let a snake eat you?
Or you think you are too big for a snake to eat you? Why? A snake ate a house in Phuket last week you didn’t know that? …
“jaa before i think lawyers are criminals but nothing if i compare to her. now she make it with her lawyer so i cannot have the house back and 1 year i build that for her every day of my life. this is a bullshit thing she is doing i am so messed up i cannot think why she would do this to me to us what did i do to her?’
My fault. I did a popular story last year Snake and Mouse did you read that yet? If no you have to go read that first. But my fault because i said in my Snake and Mouse story i will do a story about rules “soon” … and i did not do that yet.
Snake Food… is about my rules to help you climb up from the snake so she cannot eat you.
I am not talking about bdsm rules ok. I am taking about if you want to have a girlfriend here … what rules you need. Or you will be snake food.
The first rule of Fight Club is: you do not talk about Fight Club. The second rule of Fight Club is: you DO NOT talk about Fight Club!
The first rule of dating Thai Girls is: you do not talk about LOVE. The second rule of dating Thai Girls is : you DO NOT talk about LOVE!
Why? Because you don’t think how i think. You don’t think how my mom thinks. You don’t think how my family thinks. You don’t think how most people in my country think. Because you have money… and we do not. It is that easy.
“Thailand has reduced poverty from 27% in 1990 to 9.8% in 2002, and the proportion of underweight children has fallen by nearly half.”
1990 … i was 9 years old. 27% that was me. Every day when i wake up do you know what i was thinking?
Can i eat today?
Is rain coming today? Because where i sleep i don’t have a good roof and i sleep in the rain often.
Can i go to school or not enough money again?
That was 23 years ago.
Now we are older … you know what my mom thinks every day? What my sister thinks? What everybody in my family thinks?
Can i eat today?
Can i pay for the house this month? Can i pay for electricity this month?
You read my story Snake and Mouse yes?
In my story i talk about a bag … a bag from a Thai lady … her foreigner boyfriend wanted me to bring that back to her after she left him. What was in the bag? I have no idea … i did not look. Not my business to know that. But everybody in my family wanted to look. Everybody in my family wanted to sell what was inside at the market. Why because bad people?
Or because if she had gold or something like that inside … everybody can eat for 6 months if i sell it. Why do i have to give a bag from a foreigner to somebody i do not know? For what? If i say to my family that bag has a memory … he has a broken heart … they say so?
Cannot eat love.
Cannot eat a memory.
There is no love. There is money and there is food. And you think 27% of us only think like that? 27% is who has 0 money. Who makes 300 baht one day is almost everybody. 1500 baht one week. 6000 baht one month. Even the most poor mansion in my city is 4000 one month. No electric … no water … just to stay there so you don’t get wet in the rain. Food is 60 baht one day. 1600 every month for food. That’s it … money gone … finished. No new clothes … no laundry … no bus money just have to walk 10 km to work.
Love is a dream. I see it on tv. I see it in the movies. But it is not real.
How to survive is real.
Honest … if he did not pay me 10,000 baht to take the bag to his girlfriend … no way i would go. So maybe i am better because i did not want to open his bag and look inside. I did not want to sell everything at the market and lie to him. So what? I am still think about how to survive. I took his bag for 10,000 baht.
I think about money first. How to not die … i think about that every day. Somebody poor thinks only how to survive.
And you come to Thailand … love love love. Only thing you can think about is love love love. Fun fun fun. Holiday holiday holiday.
What is a holiday?
“The couple that I shall describe are immediate neighbours in our village. I have known them for a long time and they are delightful people. The old man is gentle and smiling and Mama is always full of fun, the life and soul of the party when she dances everyone to exhaustion. Now in their early seventies they continue to work hard as they have done all their lives. As small farmers they work 365 days a year and they have hardly ever left the village, nor ever had a holiday. The concept of a holiday just does not exist for them.” … i copy from this website because what he says is 100% true.
Dumb mouse. We don’t know what is a holiday.
Today Joy … my sister … she has in her purse 150 baht. That is all the money in her life in her purse. 4pm today she will go to the market and pay 100 baht to have a place to sell her things. Now it is 6am … probably she is just home now from the garbage dump looking for what she can clean and sell today.
My mom will make rice today … for 15 people. At 5pm Joy will have 50 baht in her purse only … to live. Maybe if today is good like yesterday … she will sell 300 baht and make 200 baht so she can live for sure 2 more days.
But she has a choice … you see that yet?
She can sell garbage for 200 baht.
Or she can sell love for 1000 baht … only she has to open her legs for that. She is married and she loves her idiot husband so she will not go do that. But for a lot … 1000 is better than 300 even if she has a husband.
That is why we have Nana … Soi Cowboy … Patpong … and every business is a massage business.
Ok … if Joy goes. You think for 1000 baht she will tell you about her husband … if she thinks you will pay her again tomorrow 1000 baht again?
2000 baht is 10 days she can stay home … not smell like garbage … not sit for 12 hours to try to sell something yesterday she found under a pizza box. You don’t think she will tell you everything you want for that?
I am proud about her. She worked with me for 1 session and said no to me. For her she wants to live her life poor and not sell her heart.
I sold my heart a long time ago. Really…i don’t have one. Not now. Not for a long time.
I am evil.
Because i think mean things.
I have many many sms from 1 client and it is the most beautiful … most romantic … most honest sms i ever see and every day i have about 10 from him. How many girls have somebody like that in her life? Somebody to take time to do a sms to make me happy. I appreciate it. But.
But what? But he wants to take me to dinner and he keeps saying in his sms that he has a car to give me … he wants to give me my dream … a car. For so long he keeps saying that with nice sms. And i am not stupid i know how to Google somebody and see who he is … comes from where…his job is what. So if somebody is going to give a car to me he has to be super vip in his job … and he is.
And always i think about 2 mistresses in this city … one has a condo and 1 car her client buy for her … 2 has a dungeon and everything in it and the house from her client. My mom’s sister daughter …2 actually … have 50 million baht and 30 million baht. One has 2 houses already and one has a condo and a car. So why not me? This maybe is my time to have a chance to meet somebody like that.
You cannot believe how excited i was for the session. Another 10 amazing sms to make me smile. Then he is joking to me when we will go to chiang mai for a session. I say to him we will go when i have a car.
‘ok i meet you at 5pm for the session and 5:01 i give you your car and the keys and we go to Chiang Mai’
If somebody says that to you what do you think? Maybe not you but me ya .. i believe. I believe everybody still. So stupid i keep try to think this world is nice and nice people will see me if i keep doing something nice. I never learn you know that? Who is not stupid is Natty and my mom i tell both i will have a car and come see …come see. Ya they both say i am stupid to think that.
So ya … 5pm he comes.
And i get my car. Want to see it? It is the same size as my finger.
He takes me to dinner. Dinner is over and no money. He does not pay me. Even after my story Time is Money … and i know he read that … i get nothing. 100 sms i guess is the same as 10,000 baht. Well in his brain.
So now who is the dumb mouse? Me.
I go home and Natty and my mom laugh at me and my ears i can feel like burning.
Ok so the world is 50 50. Thai can play a game with foreigners. But i see a foreigner can play the same game back … go around come around.
It makes me harder.
Fuck i don’t want to be hard. I really like him … his job is amazing … for his job he does what i want to do so much … so so much from my heart i want to help people so bad. I think maybe…maybe… he can help me do a job like he does because he is so vip … and i can stop this job and be proud for who i am…what i can do. Why what is my life if i cannot help people?
So i open my heart to him and start to dream … he will give me a car … i can have an amazing job … i can have a friend … and i give myself a chance to be happy. And boom … kills my dream. No worse … laughs at my dream.
Ya so i have to get hard. Mean. Close my heart.
This is why i don’t trust men. They play games. They zig zag.
This is why i love my job. I can be honest when i want to … but i am smart enough to know who is a zig zag professional … and i zig zag him back more.
Know what? Part 2 will be the zig zag game. I have to get this out and i have a lot to say …too much for one story. Already this is one week i am writing this.
So why my story is Snakes and Ladders?
You … you have money. You live in a country we cannot go to if we do not have a visa. Your money is more money than our money. We think about family first … how to take care of family. So you … are a rope. Just that … a rope. You have a rope at your house? You love your rope?
Who does not need a rope is who has money in my country. But she will not go with you. Nobody with money will go with you if she does not have to.
Why?
If you want to understand that you have to see this movie They Live. I tell you i see life from movies and i see 3 movies every night it is how i learn about the world.
Watch that movie but have a brain ok … think who is who … you will get it what i try to say.
Stop.
You watch the movie yet? Go do it.
Ok welcome back lol.
There is 2 things … flower and a snake.
You want the flower. But cannot get it … the flower is for the bee only. The flower does not want you to pick it.
The snake is magic. It can change to look like a flower.
But really … it is a normal snake. You give the snake magic. It is you … you change the snake to a flower.
You pick it.
Smells wonderful.
Looks beautiful.
Then your flower bites you. And you think why? How can a flower bite me?
Because you changed it to a flower. Get it?
You need the sunglasses again. You need to see true everything looks like what really.