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My Birthday is Coming … and Home Depot knows it.
Why because they sent me a sms first to say Happy Birthday.
What?
You let Home Depot beat all of you? Every submissive … every slave … every pet … every friend … everybody. lol
Yes my birthday … April 16 … is still 9 days more from today. I just think it is funny i am more VIP for Home Depot than you 
I love my birthday now … before no i never even think about my birthday one time in my life. Nobody cared. I never 1 time had a cake. Sing a song for me … never.
Then i remember after 5 months i start to do jaa4u i have first time in my life emails to me to say happy birthday. You know … that is i think the first time i start to think there is somebody nice in the world. Because same month i went to India for a vacation and he paid me for that. So my birthday was amazing for first time in my life.
Last year was amazing again … i came home from South Africa and i have gifts waiting at my condo for me… and some emails 
What i learn from that is … every year i see 500 new people … about that.
For my birthday from 500 … about 20 will email me happy birthday … and about 5 will buy me a gift.
The same 5 who email me every day and make me smile.
3 years. 1500 men in my life. 20 emails. 5 gifts. 0 from family.
My mom stayed at my house last week 7 days. I think wow so nice for her to do that. She clean .. take care … make everything nice.
Yesterday she ask me for 10,000 baht for Naan … my brothers daughter … so she can go to Grade 9. Now i know why she stayed at my condo 1 week.
Two days ago June from my family came to my condo. Nice … long time i never see her too. She ask me for 500 for food for her baby. Now i know why she came.
Today i have a talk with Natty. She asked me for 10,000.
So?
Everybody freaks out when i say i will stop everything soon and go be a monk for my life. I am so close to doing that. I want to know better people. I want a better planet. I want to change this world.
I cried yesterday in my session. Drank too much. Drinking makes my shield to protect me from the world come down.
Everybody uses me. Actually … i think everybody uses everybody. Nothing is real.
Just some people. Some people are real.
Some people … and Home Depot