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The worst mind game in a 24 hour session is the mind game i give myself. That is what i am learning the most this week with my pet/slave … how to relax my brain.
To have a pet/slave boyfriend where i control everything about his life is opposite from what the world thinks is ok for a relationship.
If you don’t know me by now … i don’t listen to what the world thinks.
Why because the world does not want you to think for yourself. So if i think something different i have to close my mouth about it. Especially here lol. Because if i do not close my mouth this is what will happen …
But this is my blog. My job is to tell you what is happening inside my brain so you can understand my style of bdsm better.
I am telling you i absolutely love to have a pet/slave boyfriend. I want it. I have to have it. I think it is normal for somebody who thinks like me.
This is my job and i want to be #1 in the world for how to give the best pet/slave 24/7 relationship.
To do that i have to stop the mind games i give to myself. I am still thinking … and asking … everything that normal people ask in a relationship and i have to stop that.
This is new rules.
Is he happy? He has to ask himself am i happy. If he does not ask that i will find another slave. I am learning to think like that.
There is no NO! The word ‘no’ is pissing me off. If i want something get it for me or go home. For sure if i have full time submissive boyfriend i will cut him if he says no to me even one time. But for somebody paying me to do a 24/7 session ‘no’ is harder. Who is the boss? Me because he is paying me to control him? Or him because if he is not happy i don’t get another session with him? See? Not easy to answer that.
Freedom to be myself. I don’t have a sweet mouth and i am almost never nice. I have a mood and i get mad easy if something is not perfect from you. I am demanding. That is who i am and in a normal relationship nobody can take it. I like this new style because i am free to be like this. I don’t have to think about anything.
Think about that ok.
You always say in your email to me ‘i am trying to make her happy’.
I ask you ‘did you have a good weekend with your wife?’ and you answer me back ‘yes we made it through the weekend ok’.
Seriously that is your life now? You ‘made it’ Saturday and Sunday no fighting and not mad at each other … and you are ok to live your life like that?
More things you say to me about your normal relationship … from my email ok …
‘i try to avoid her’
‘we are like friends at this point’
‘we never have sex’ … ‘sex is boring’ … ‘i am sure she has other men she uses for sex’
So normal is better how?
I have a freedom to be myself.
My submissive boyfriend has a freedom to worship me and make me happy.
My rules is 100/0 … i will always be 100/0. If he wants to change and start to be 90/10 or 80/20 we finish and maybe he will find somebody new but very hard for him because how many in the world are like me?
Not a lot.
I have many many many in the world who want to come be my pet.
So i don’t have to live in a world where 50/50 can be 60/40 for him after 1 year and i have to be ok with that.
My rules. My game. Play or get out.
It is a very powerful way to think and i am just getting used to it.