Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Honest Eyes
If my story can say 1000 words … i think my eyes can tell 1 million words.
It is why i don’t photoshop my pictures for my blog.
It is why i am not scared to put a picture that is not perfect … because if it is telling you what i am feeling or what i am thinking i will put it no problem.
So i am doing my email … well i am finished now but when i did it i had a bad time because somebody said something about my eyes and that hurt. It hurt because to me because somebody will say something and really have no idea what is the story behind that you know? So after i did my story yesterday about sound of silence i put my photo from the funeral … and ya i know it is not a perfect photo and ya i know you think i wear a lot of makeup in the photo but you don’t know why do you?
What i wanted to put … the photo i wanted to put more is the photo you can see in my story today left side … that really was how was my face last week sad like that.
For 7 days i was not only in Ayudaya ok. I woke up 3am from my condo. Went with my mom to Ayudaya morning market to buy the food every day at 4:30 or 5am. Then cooking all that until about 7am. After i give food to the monk for blessing i made all the chair and table ready. And … spend all the day like that taking care everything until 6pm. About 1 hour to clean everything and put everything nice and sit down to talk with family that time about 7pm.
So when i get home to Bangkok it was late about 10pm every night. Shower and sleep so fast at 10:30 because after 4 hours it is time to wake up again at 2:30am to be ready to go get my mom in Samut Prakan at 3am to go back again to Ayudaya for the funeral.
So ya i agree my eyes looked like i had a war with my face or something. But no i did not “cover my face in makeup” like he said … it is the same makeup i put always just a light makeup to try to look more pretty.
Eyes are important. I can tell what somebody is thinking. What they are like. Who they think they are really. If they try to hide something. Often i can see everything like that only from his eyes.
More important for you is … i use my eyes a lot when i tease you.
Why because i think there is a connection … i can connect to your penis from my eye to your eye … yup really.
Somebody asked me today if i can cuddle him for his session .. make it a long romantic session …
“Can we do like a 1.5 hour tease and denial (with light bdsm of course- nipple biting and twisting, urethral penetration, ball squeezing and slapping, making me worship you all over), then orgasm, then 30 minutes post orgasm torture, then cuddle for 15 minutes, then do it again? And again, and again? And finish at around 4am? Or, is that too many hours?:
No it is not too many hours … problem is it is a fake session.
How? Well my opinion ok … i cannot cuddle with 10 client every week and have a honest eyes when i do that. Actually i cannot even do that with 1 client really. It is not me it is fake. I don’t know him. Problem is everybody thinks he is special. And ya i agree everybody is special … but i cannot even remember who i saw last week. Another email today somebody is asking me to do another session because last week was amazing …so amazing. And i am thinking only … who the hell is that … i did an amazing session for who?
Don’t laugh ok you cannot even remember all your girlfriend from last year … try to have 10 girlfriends every week and see who you forget.
So honest eyes means what to me? Ok well that means when i have your cock in my hand after i teased you for 10 minutes … and i put my nails on your chest and come down to between your legs and push inside your legs on your muscle … and “accident” i touch your balls … and you make a noise you love it.
Then i will look at you like this … like in the photo.
Actually in the photo every time he makes a noise i look at him like that and move my cock inside his bum only when he makes a noise. Made him crazy lol. And no not my cock i am not a ladyboy ok … my strap on cock is inside him 
I love to do that. Do something by accident and when you go crazy i like to look not at your eye … into your eyes so you know really … what i am doing is not a accident understand?
That makes you crazy. When i make you think i did something amazing by accident but you see inside my eyes no not really that is true not by accident. Then you want me to do it again … but no i don’t. I mean i will … but not when you want me to do it. I will make you forget i did that first and go back to play with your nipples first … then make you think about my nails. Then make you think about the top of your penis … and next under the head of your cock.
So after 10 minutes … ‘by accident’ i will touch your balls again because i remember you like it. I am like a computer girl ok i am doing a program in my brain when i start my session with you about where you like it … what makes you excited the most.
And we play a game like that. You want me to touch you “there” because you like it. My job i make sure you know you like it “there” … but a tease is when i can make you start to beg me with … your eye of course … beg me with your eye to touch you “there” again.
Ya ok maybe i will. Maybe i will not. Up to me really. Depends how you beg.
Some they beg with a noise. Some smile. Some close his eyes … why you want to sleep or something? I hate that lol. But the most i like is when you beg me with your eyes.
Then i will touch the place you like the most again … but not the same way you like me to touch you. Maybe i slap … maybe i pinch. Maybe i put my nails too hard. And now the place you love it the most is like a shock … it will say to you “what happened …she is crazy or what?” … “why does she touch like that?”
Your eyes change … you look at me and i give you my crazy look lol.
So about 30 minutes after we start ok … you have absolutely no idea if i am amazing … if i suck … if you are horny … if you are scared … if you are happy … if you will cum … if you will not cum … if i will hurt you … or if i will make you feel perfect. You have no idea.
And you start to doubt me. Yup.
I can see your eye change. Look at me like why i am doing that.
“ow that hurts”
and then …
“yes that is perfect like that”
and then …
“fuck why she stopped … i don’t like you pull my ear like that … why you slap my leg …go back … touch him”
You see what that is? Desire. You desire that. You want it. How you want it … you want it so perfect. You know i can do it … why because i did it perfect for a little bit already. So you … desire … you want that more agree?
And what is perfect about tease &denial ok …why that works so amazing you want to know? Finally you want me to tell you what i know about you? Ok fine i will do it … finally tell you.
You are a man lol. Means you cannot be patient … you cannot wait.
Because all your life you get what you want. Maybe every time no … but often ya you do.
So you teach your brain like that … you want it you get it right?
But you come here and you are tied up and cannot get what you want … you think i am crazy or perfect you have no idea … and you want to cum … but you cannot.
What about your email? Like his email i showed you already he wants to cum how many times? Always you talk like you are proud about that you can cum 5 times in two hours you are so amazing! And now you are thinking “fuck can she let me cum one time i hope please?”
“what do you want baby?”
“let me cum”
“ok can i give you a honest answer?” and i make you look in my eyes. My honest eyes. What do you see? You get your answer yet? :P