Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Two Islands
My mom always wanted to see an island to see what it is like to relax and be alone. Ok because for all her life my mom was never happy. Why because she had to take care 14 people evey day.
I mean all her sisters … and babies from that … and well just everybody in my family and we stayed before in one room … then finally her house in Samut Prakan but always it was too many people for her and her life. Not what she wanted really.
But she did it. Always she did it and always she wanted to stop and relax even for one day. I worked with her the same job at the IC board company 12 hour every day … i did washing with her every day after work and before work. I did dishes with her every day before work and after work. So i know that hell she talk about ok.
So i know the island she dreams about … the other side of life. A chance to be alone and not have to take care of anybody. Can relax and have fun … do anything she like to do.
And i gave her that. I gave her an island for herself. She has to only stay with my son in my house … 10 hours from Samut Prakan so nobody in her family can ask her to come do something to help. Take care of not 14 people … only take care of 1. She has the chance to be alone now. To go from 14 people to one people and …
Only do laundry for 1 and herself.
Only clean a house for 1 person.
Only go shopping for food for her and one more.
See problem with that … she finish at 9am … everything. For somebody who did 16 hours every day from when she was about 16 … to now finish in 2 hours means for 14 hours she can do what?
Answer … she has no idea what to do for 14 hours. It makes her crazy. Like really crazy i think.
Left and right of my house almost never somebody is home … only the parrot i talk about before. That is her best friend really … she likes to talk and teach the parrot to talk. Why because that is the only thing she can talk to … one animal.
I try to make sense about all the reason she left to go to Bangkok … and i know we have more serious problems too that cut her and me like 2 island so far from each other … but maybe i don’t think enough about how lonely is her island compare to my island.
You know … all my life i am fighting to put close to me people to pull me up … not 14 people to pull me down. So for that i try to be alone on my island. But my country how it is … everybody says no you cannot have a island … you have to have a big city of family and take care of everybody.
Ok but if 14 have only 1 coconut from all their trees to eat … and 1 has 15 coconuts … guess how many coconuts i have to share to make everybody feel happy? Means i have only 1 coconut for me right?
That is not the way to go up … that is the way to always have one coconut until when i die … then my son will have the same one coconut life.
How to change and go up in the world … well only 2 ways i know really.
Be exactly like my cousin in Italy. Marry to somebody rich … and make him send money home so her mom can share to who is close in her family and my cousin is the hero. Seriously she is like the super hero in my family.
I have a letter today from someobody from France he wants to marry me. Ya sure … take me to France … pay for my son for his school there and same time send money to my mom so she can share to Joy and everybody else who fail and ya i will be Wonder Woman too if i can find a man like that. Ya probably not.
So 2 … well 2 is just be the island i am making. Hopefully my island will be in the other side of the world. And just be happy with that. My family now is 2 people me and my son. Like i say so many times .. maybe you don’t get it when i say it … but when i go from here it is forever. Lonely for me is not a big deal really.
But ok … while i am happy with my island … i am looking to her island and it is empty. She left already. Sad thing about that is she has to come back … i know she has to come back because that is the only way to make money … from me.
So she is stuck in her island really.
So am i … but more happy than her about it. My island has more coconuts.