Bangkok Bdsm Dominatrix Jaa4u >> Winds of Change
The world is closing in
Did you ever think
That we could be so close, like brothers
The future’s in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change
10 years ago i was sitting close to soi 5 at Sukhumvit close to Nana … 3am me and Ooh my friend liked to eat sometimes outside and talk for all night about everything. After 3am everybody had to go run like hell because the wind and after the rain came so hard it made everything broken. Next day i met my boyfriend. Next month i was in Canada. My life changed … i think because of the wind.
2 years ago … almost exactly … i was making pasta for everybody at my mom’s house. Kitchen for her house is outside the front of the house. I will load a video to show you the rain that came … and the wind … and the lightning hit so close to my house.
I stopped cooking. Why because the wind was like a message to me … wind is bringing change and nobody can fight that. If it is time to go it is time to go … and the wind will tell you when. Next month after that i moved to this condo and everything changed again.
Today the storm is here again. The wind is outside my mom’s house here the same like 2 years ago and it has the same angry sound. Actually it feels more angry than before and i don’t have a good feeling about everything.
First … 2 days ago i was looking for a new condo and by accident ok … i tried to put my back on a wall to move so Natty can see the view. But no wall behind me … and i fell hit my head on the floor. After that … until today … i cannot sleep … i cannot stop my head from hurt … i am dizzy every minute … i want to be sick to the toilet often … and i am bad mood and feel angry and sad same time like i cannot relax.
Next … i cannot find a new condo i like. Too small … too expensive … too far from a bts. Every condo has a problem.
Third … i don’t want to live by myself really. Natty and me will finish with each other. Means if i have to move i will live by myself and honest for my job i don’t want to do that. Only way i moved to here this condo was because i moved with Natty and i felt safe here every session.
What can i do i can move here back to my mom’s house… the same time she moves out to my house … so weird. But every session has to be a hotel session again if i do that.
Or i can do what else? I have no idea.
How i feel right now i feel like yes outside is the wind of change again. But same time i feel it will take everything but not me.
The storm outside now is breaking everything. Joy’s window broken 10 minutes ago.
Laundry thing outside is broken. Even the house gate has so much noise coming from that now because it is shaking.
Something is coming for me. And i don’t feel safe i feel like the world is closing in. Funny because with no Natty … no son … no mom … i feel only close to you who i write for … like you are my brother. The wind will bring the future so it is in the air and coming already. I cannot stop it i feel it everywhere.
It is blowing the wind of change 
… and i hope the children of tomorrow … my son … will have a good dream and a good life after the winds is gone already.
